Book 1 in the CCHR Series WARNING: Self Harm--May Be Triggering Harry Styles is messed up. There's no other way to put it. He's hopelessly in love with someone he can't have. Someone who is taken. His best friend. He spends most of his waking hours thinking of him. Scratch that.. ALL his waking hours thinking of him. He just can't get him out of his head. But that isn't all. He has scars to show how much he really loves him. He keeps adding more everyday. It's unhealthy. The only one who can save him, is Louis. But he's too concentrated on loving Eleanor. So Harry has fallen into routine. Cry, Cut, Hide, Repeat. Its slowly killing him. Copyright.

"It's hard letting go. I'm finally at peace but it feels wrong." {Under going editing. It's being rewritten from the beginning, grammatical errors are being fixed. Should be completely edited and polished by December}

~complete~ Harry and Louis have been best friends since they where little, when Harry's wold was turned upside down by having sever back pain Louis was the only person to notice. Now in college and roommates Harry's injury flares up worse than it has ever been before, with tension rising between the best friends about what Harry should do, go to a doctor or wait it out, Louis makes a rash decision that could change life as he and Harry have both known.

❝I bet I can make you feel pain.❞ ❝I'd like to see you try.❞

Louis has a habit of not complaining. Harry hates it because, sometimes if you don’t complain, bad things happen; like ending up in the ICU. This is the OFFICIAL VERSION please note that there are four or five R rated scenes that have been moved to another site to keep this story un-privated. The links are provided in the appropriate places in the story where you can read them. Please check my bio for the link to the translations! These include POLISH (Polski), SPANISH (Español), ITALIAN (Italiano), FRENCH (Français), RUSSIAN (русский), CZECH, CHINESE (中国的), ROMANIAN (român), PORTUGUESE (português), BRAZILIAN PORTUGUESE (português do Brasil) SLOVAK (slovenská), DUTCH (Nederlands), GERMAN (Deutsch) Direct link to translation masterpost is: http://room_317.livejournal.com

Louis sent 14 messages before he died. One to his mother, one to his sister Lottie, one to his sister Fizzy, one to his sister Phoebe, one to his sister Daisy, and nine to his best friend, Harry Styles.