"i think that you're worth keeping around. i think you're worth holding onto." a list of 'law & order: special victims unit' headcanons, oneshots, imagines, and preferences. mostly based off songs :3 title and description comes from "soap" by the oh hellos. "oh no, i think i'm not quite ready to let you circle the drain."

Season 18 Olivia Benson x fem!OC Alexis Gray NYPD Lieutenant Olivia Benson's world is upended when she crosses paths with Alexis Gray, a fearless FBI Agent and Navy SEAL. Their connection begins in the line of duty and deepens through shared danger, quiet moments, and an undeniable pull neither can ignore. But as Alexis battles her own ghosts and a mission turns deadly, Olivia is forced to confront what she truly wants. In a world where duty and desire collide, will they take the risk... or let fear win?

Some chapters contain smut so just a heads up

A routine lead turns into a setup... and you become the leverage. When a warehouse raid goes wrong, Olivia Benson is forced to watch the unthinkable happen, unable to stop it. What follows isn't just a case... it's the aftermath. Told in POV, this story dives into survival, guilt, and the bond between you and the squad as the investigation unfolds, leading into a trial that will change everything. Because it doesn't end with the arrest. Not when the consequences follow you home... and into a future you never planned for. Ongoing story.

TW: Suicidal thoughts & suicidal ideation. Olivia and Amanda find you sitting on the edge of the precinct rooftop and quickly realize you're not just there for some quiet. As they try to reach you, the truth about how badly you've been struggling finally comes out.

TW: Gun violence, character death & grief. What should have been an ordinary walk home changes in seconds when a gunshot leaves you bleeding in your fifteen-year-old brother's arms. Noah does everything he can to keep you with him. But when Olivia reaches the scene, she finds one of her children gone... and the other still refusing to let her go. In the hours that follow, Olivia is forced to do the impossible: grieve the daughter she lost while holding together the son who watched it happen.

TW: Self-harm & emotional distress. You've been hiding your self-harm from your mom, Olivia, for a long time. But one night, you finally show her the marks and admit that you've been struggling more than she knew.

TW: Self-harm, emotional distress You finally tell Amanda, your mom, about your self-harm and how long you've been struggling with it alone. Instead of pushing for answers, she stays with you and makes sure you don't have to handle it alone anymore.

Rollins finds out she's pregnant the hard way can she get through without any complications or will it be a long road?

A sudden, violent attack leaves the narrator gasping for air, her throat bruised and her voice silenced. As the adrenaline fades, the true reality of the trauma sets in, manifesting in terrifying nightmares that leave her trembling. Olivia Benson, ever vigilant and tender, refuses to let her face the darkness alone. Through hospital corridors and sleepless nights, Olivia becomes her anchor, offering the care and protection the narrator desperately needs to heal. TW!!!