when you still have this tiny, tiny bit of hope inside of you that they will learn how to love you again, even if there's this bigger part that knows: they never will. © sushitae- 「 highest ranking: #19 in poetry 」

it's 12 am and i'm wide awake --- just a short disclaimer from the author in 2021, please do note that this was written by a 15 year old.

[ To HIM, 040218 ] ❝I was a rainbow but he was colorblind.❝ In this story told from the perspective of a strong individual, Hayden Williams. Let us witness his story and on how his friendship to a straight guy decay because of a intruder that came to their life.

(Undergoing some editing) He was the light in my darkness, he wasn't a star in my twilight, he was the whole damn sky. || Highest Rank - #10 in Teen Fiction on 24/09/2017 - #40 in Romance on 10/10/2017 Adien Lester is bullied, physically, mentally and verbally. His mother abused by his father, escaped certain, gradual death, to a new Town. Life couldn't get any worst. He doesn't know how much more he can take. Nick Newman is popular, captain of the basketball team and has been given an offer to be trained and become a professional basketball player. Life is a dream, the only problem is, yet he's a foster kid with nowhere to call home and a crippling fear of being discovered. And he's willing to do anything to make sure no one finds out. So when Nick is accused of bullying, his principle assigns him to protect the most bullied boy in school, Adien Lester. New friends... New love... And blossoming feelings. This can't end well... Can it? Warning* May cause some Fangirling moments. Completed ✅ Cover by: @mileysmuffins

*** COMPLETED *** Sixteen year old Daniel Layman has been bullied since he came out. His best friend and protector Sean, moved to Los Angeles leaving Daniel to fend for himself in Oklahoma City. Along with trying to survive every minute of hell at school, Daniel also has to walk over five miles everyday through the dangerous streets of Oklahoma City, just to get home - where he has to ignore the aggressive men his mother brings home every night. Seventeen year old Ethan Miller has been a member of one of the most dangerous gangs in Oklahoma City since he ran away from the foster care system as a child. When Daniel stumbles onto a turf war between Ethan's gang and their rivals, Ethan saves him. But the more Ethan gets to know Daniel, the more he realizes just how much saving Daniel needs. Cover art: made by me #1 in #boyxboy - May/2020 #2 in #gay - May/2020

Alec is what you would call a "slut". Although he hates the word, that's what he and everyone else categorizes him as. Not to mention he is gay. He has an alcoholic father who takes his anger out in him and a mother who abuses drugs. With a bad relationship in the past, Alec decides to go to gay clubs to let guys do what they wish as they call him beautiful, which is all he wants; someone to need him. There is a boy at school, Jace, who Alec fancies. But he knows that he can never have a relationship and all he is to people is a sex toy. Read to hear Alec's story ---------------------- This book is not for everyone so please be careful. I love all of you and want you safe. HUGE TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️

Ethan and Alex used to be inseparable, no matter what life threw at them they told each other they would get through it. After Ethan did the unimaginable, the inseparable couple turned into just another story in a book. Now as Ethan and Alex start navigating life without each other and trying to forget their pasts, there's an invisible force drawing them slowly back to each other. Will their future become one again or will their story stay closed?

*revised and edited* His shocking blue eyes locked on mine, his breath warm against my ear as he whispered, "Kiss me." I froze. Five minutes ago he'd slammed my books to the floor like I didn't matter, and now he stood close enough for my heartbeat to betray me. I couldn't tell if he wanted me to love him or hate him-or both. But wanting him was the problem. Because somewhere between the confusion and the chaos, I'd fallen for Ethan Walker. And the moment he stepped into my life, everything I thought I knew-about myself, about loneliness, about safety-shifted beneath my feet. Nothing was simple anymore. Not with him this close.

"Ethan." Aiden pauses. "I want you." He softly bites my ear. "I want to kiss you more than you will ever know." Trying to avoid the daily beatings of the school bully can be challenging. But what happens if the schools bully has a crush on you?

"What's wrong?" He asked softly, grabbing Kai's arm and preventing him from running away again. "N-nothing." Kai whispered looking down at his shoes. Nicolas lifted Kai's chin and looked into his black eyes with a soft look. "I know something is wrong. Tell me." He coaxed moving his hand from Kai's chin to cup his cheek instead. "I don't like it when you laugh and smile with Rex" Kai mumbled. "I want you to only smile at me." _____________________________________________ Kai and Nicolas were best friends. They've always been best friends. Everyone around them craved to have a friendship as beautiful as theirs. Nothing could change it. Until something could. Something as simple as feelings.