Alex dealt with self harm when he was younger, that's over now though- he's better, until he's not. Struggling with the idea of self harming as an adult Alex keeps the issue to himself, but living on a tour bus with your band there's only so long you can keep something a secret. Warning: Contains graphic descriptions of self harm

TW: Self harm, suicidal thoughts. Note: Smut, fluff, all the good stuff. A Jalex fic. Alex is in love with this black haired boy with the blonde streak in his hair. Alex doesn't even know this boy's name, and the boy doesn't know Alex. The boy has never even so much as looked at Alex. Until now. Setting- end of March 2017, but Alex and Jack are in high school. No band. Just Alex and Jack as themselves. This story has nothing to do with real-life Alex and Jack, or their band All Time Low. This is simply just a story. I did change the time this story is set in, because I realized that I can't go forward when I don't know what's happening in 2020, let alone 2021. So, it's now 2017. Either way, story doesn't change.

Alex is a 23 year old man in Baltimore, Maryland. He just lost his job, is dealing with his sick father, and got broken up with. To make matters worse, his ex had taken everything from him. Alex stumbles into a bar, gets some free pity drinks from the bartender. He sees a guy sitting at table and is intrigued. Bartender gives Alex a little rundown of the black haired guy, then tells Alex to bring him a drink. Jack was his name. Jack and Alex talk, and I guess we'll see what happens next.

What are you supposed to do when the person who says they love you is the one who's constantly hurting you? What do you do when someone offers help? I got attached. I don't know what the fuck to do. That's for sure. I am warning now, this is a dark story. The first few chapters especially. Please, please be cautious of this while reading. (Jalex fic. Talk of self harm, sexual assault, suicidal thoughts, self harm scenes- cutting, pills, burning) Please read at your own discretion. Disclaimer: I do not own or am affiliated with the real Alex Gaskarth or Jack Barakat. The ones named in my book are fictional characters and their story is my own work.

Alex is missing for three days and Jack is more than a little upset. But when Alex returns drunk off his ass with more than a minor injury, Jack really isn't sure what to think. I wrote the first few chapters with my friend but after that it's basically just my fic (Completed)

-COMPLETED- - trigger warnings in first chapter "Let's get to my house, we need to get you warm," he says. I look at him, and he's soaking wet. He's only wearing a short sleeve shirt with skinny jeans, since he gave me the sweatshirt he was wearing. I felt bad for him, but at the same time, he looked so perfect. The way the rain was dripping off his hair and chin, the way his wet shirt clung to his body, the way he was looking at me- all of it. Every part of me is aching to kiss him, just once, but I know I can't. He's perfect, but he's as straight as can be. === Ex best friends. That's what they were. Everything changed once Alex came out as gay to Jack, pushing them from best friends to strangers with memories. But, when Alex goes to extreme measures to end his pain, will Jack come back into his life? And even if he does... will they be able to be around each other without their world crumbling around them? -=+=- I've sprinkled quite a few All Time Low song references not only in the titles, but in the text hehehe Started: Nov. 13, 2019 Finished: Dec. 1, 2019

Jack's biggest bully is Alex, the tough football star, who isn't always what he seems.....

Alex Gaskarth is done with life. He's got nothing left to live for, and no one to say goodbye to except the random anonymous faces on the internet. When one of those anonymous faces with the name of Jack Barakat talks him out of suicide, will this be the new beginning both boys desperately need, or their last reason to pull the trigger? *TRIGGER WARNING. MENTIONS OF DEPRESSION, SUICIDE, SELF HARM, EATING DISORDERS, AND BULLYING.*

Alex's nightmares are somewhat prophetic; but now he's dreaming of blonde highlights over brown eyes.