A NorCal AU where Louis is the town troublemaker and everyone hates him except for Harry. [part one of go ahead, rip my heart if that's what love's all about] «» "You are the essence of my existence. You are my greatest experience. I live you like a poet thinks. I live you like an alcoholic drinks. I love you, I love you, and I would rather die than live a day without you in my life." - Clémentine Beauvais

Another day, another life. That's what it always feels like. Another day passes by, another life comes and goes, another second, another minute, another hour, passes by just like his. It's not complicated, it's not messy, it's just what it is now. Harry doesn't think he can take much more, everything hurts, everything is dull, everything is too much. Days pass by one after another in a blur of time. visits mostly from Zayn and Niall. never Liam. Harry knows it's too hard for Liam to look at Harry right now. He wants to understand, he wants it to be okay, but he doesn't and it's not.

"You are far from a mistake, Louis. You are the best goddamned thing that's ever happened to me." - Louis was in a car accident while Harry one month pregnant, leaving him severely handicapped. Now, he depends on Harry for things like eating and going to the washroom. Things will only get harder with a baby.

AU "I need you like a heartbeat." "Why?" "Because I can't live without you."

••complete 2014•• nothing can last forever

Harry and Louis have been together for 20 years. Harry cheats. Louis cries. Harry is given a year to fix their family. Copyright 2020 @hilourry on AO3 If you don't like the ending of this book, check out its companion book, No Longer Home, with a much different ending. Even if you did like this ending, check it out anyway!

A short story about Louis falling in love with his beard and absolutely shattering Harry's heart in the process. {WARNING: Contains very suicidal themes. Please don't read if that triggers you}

[𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒆𝒅] {𝒆𝒅𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈} 12 𝐀𝐌 "Hey darling. Tou're an hour late. Are you ok? Call me when you get this." 1 𝐀𝐌 "Lou I'm really worried. I called your friends they don't know where you are. Please call me back." 3 𝐀𝐌 "Louis Tomlinson where are you pick up your fucking phone." _ 𝑱𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒂 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒕 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒐 𝒆𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚 𝑿𝒙

harry is in love with louis but it really doesn't matter.

Have you ever regretted something you’ve done so much that it physically hurts? I have. It’s like a constant ache in my chest. Have you ever had someone in your life that it so special to you that you think your chest might just burst open when you see them? I have… And I messed it up. I, Harry Styles, had to go and wreck it. Harry Styles had everything. He had a loving family, a good job and an amazing boyfriend, Louis. But he met someone who was slightly too edgy and dangerous to cope with, someone who gave him the easy route to 'fit in'. He got caught in a trap he didn’t like, but didn’t stop in time to escape. He let his one and only fall out of the love that filled every space of Harry's being. After three years in prison, can Harry fix all the torn edges he left when he went away? Or is it too late… DISCLAIMER: I don't own anyone in this story, it is purely fiction.