R-21 MATURE CONTENT Wonderland Series #5 .... I used to be a chase fiend kinda girl. May it be hobbies, work, friends, sex...madali akong magsawa. They said na sadya raw akong maarte at matigas ang ulo,kaya kaunting inconvenience ay kaagad na akong umaayaw. Umaalis. Lumilipat. Permanence was never in my vocabulary. At bakit naman ako magtityagang mag-adjust kung marami namang pagpipilian? Choices that were much better, easier and pleasurable? It was not my fault that men mistake my red flags to be their butterflies. At bakit ko kailangang mag explain? Were they the ones walking with my skin on and enjoying every waking moment of my life? Hindi naman so, no. I could care less. Well that was my mindset then, for the second I stepped inside Wonderland? I came face to face with the truth: that I was alone. That no matter how much I ran, I was and always would...run in circles. And I was...alone. Simple as that. The epiphany led me to start changing my goals in life, that was, if I even had any. I denounced my old lifestyle, started practicing self control and landed a job that I believed I would actually like for a long term. But it was hard, alright. It got even harder when my work assigned me to one Javier Aragon. That man...god...who introduced me to Wonderland. He brought out all kinds of desperation in me lalo pa at alam kong wala naman siyang interes sa akin maliban sa mainit na bagay sa gitna ng mga hita ko. And I hated that. But I was like a masochist moth to the flame for Javier just makes me want to say yes whenever he's around...but I also wanted to chase him, corner him, make him submit and taste him over and over 'till I feel like I was back in control. Then what? So that I can run again? Probably. Or for once, maybe...I'll...stay. ........

Wonderland #6 R-21 ... Saint and I's tale was not just some the one that got away cliché kind of trope. I wish it were just that...pero heto ako ngayon at hindi pa rin handa kahit nasa harapan ko na ang katotohanan. After fourteen years, the man that I love and I...had came face to face again...like no time has passed and no walls, no rules, no premade back up plans had been made. No secrets... This time, he intended to stay, and not that he left me before. Ako ang nang-iwan. Hindi man sadya. Ako ang nagtago, aminado na akong sinadya ko na iyon. It was for the best, I thought...and I had made my very own Wonderland to keep our secret tale alive. I thought it was enough, I was enough to keep it all together. But Saint was not the man who got away if he would not make me long for him more than the usual. It was very tempting to just give it all up, tell my secrets away and be with him. ' Saint often said that it should be easy-love. But it wasn't. Not when it's choosing between him and my son. ...

Wonderland#7 R-21

Wonderland #8

Guide to everything Selina

R-18 They often said that Señor Vincent Alexander Gutiérrez screamed power, callousness and money. Well I say, bullshit. I personally think that he was just the typical entitled Neanderthal asshole. Pero aminado ako, sa unang pagtatagpo pa lang namin ay kakaiba na ang rekasyon ko sa kanya, pigilan ko man o hindi. He wanted me, he desired me-and it may have taken a lot in me to admit, I also felt the same way and I did let him...have me. He took and took, and I did not even notice that he only gave me scraps. He would always say that I was his siren, but I should have known better than be fooled by the fact that I am his sailor here-perpetually bound to shipwreck at his beck and call. .... COver Photo grabbed from Google.Credits to Claude Monet.

Taking Tatiana ...I, Tatiana Gabriella Lumineer had been a very bad girl. As it turned out, the drama refused to leave me alone. Gusto ko lang naman ding sumaya, pero bakit hindi ko magawa kahit hindi naman na ako mag-isa? The partying and fun had passed but did I still owe it to myself to do more so I could feel more? Should I forget & let go? Maybe. Maybe I should just seek out for the solace in isolation for once. And I did find it...only for fate to reap what I had sown as it meddled with my life like a raging bitch. This known...stranger was coming after me and he guaranteed not to just do bad things with me against the very same cold rustic walls of that sinful hallway. Marami siyang gusto and I was unsure if I could keep up. It was all gonna be fun and games once more, but two wrongs cannot make a right. He cannot re appear again and make me remember that one hot night. Pero mahina ako pagdating sa kanya. I let him do as he pleased knowing too well that he'll just leave after. ...

R-18 ..... I, Tatiana Gabriela Lumineer have had enough of all the drama. I will party-I will forget the bullshits and I will let myself have fun. Utang ko ito sa sarli ko and I will enjoy every second of it-kahit ngayong gabi lang. Fate seem to have a different path for me when my living in the moment was disrupted by one Othello Severino Rustia. He took me as he pleased and I let myself get taken against the cold rustic walls of that dimly lit sinful hallway. The delicious rendezvous could have ended perfectly before we parted ways but he had to open his mouth, speak and leave me like some dirty laundry. It took a while but I eventually let go of whatever doubt his words had left me. But Othello had to reappear again and make me remember that orgasm filled night. This time he's not leaving, he's not denying and he is relentless in tempting and claiming me. The only question now is, will I let him?

R-21 MATURE CONTENT Wonderland Series #4 .... I was a simple man. I was never someone who played games or prepared elaborate things to lure women to my bed. I never had to ask, though. I was brought up that way, and grew up with more violence a boy could take. I was a simple man, I never said I was a gentle man. And Josephine was a simple woman. She was never someone who played games or had the courage to step out of her perceived predetermined life. She had always been careful about her choices. She was brought up conservative that way, yet she ended up with more violence a girl could take. Josephine was a simple woman, but I never said that she was weak. And that night, at Viktor's party, I saw for myself how strong she was...how this simple woman, for the first time, could make a simple man like me...ask, listen and comply by the rules of Wonderland ...then badly long to repeat it again in perpetuity. Will she...will she even see me worthy of it despite the fact that her heart still beats for another? I hoped so. I was a simple man and I would never be gentle on matters that concerned her, but I could wait in perpetuity as well. ....