Ashton is okay right now. He's always like this after a bad bout. He starts off saying that the world is his oyster and he loves everyone, but when the energy and fresh success fades, so does he. Luke knows. He knows about all of Ashton's problems. He knows about the time Ashton was bullied nearly to the brink, the family deaths and friend losses, and the ups and downs, the latter of which seem to be more common lately. It's been so easy lately for Ashton to slip after a joke gone wrong, or a jab on Twitter. Ashton always says he's sorry, repeating it again and again if only to convince himself. Luke knows he's sorry, knows that he can't help it. And he'll sit by the bathtub for hours, holding Ashton, to make sure that he knows someone loves him. None of the other boys know. Ashton couldn't bring himself to tell them and face their disapproving stares too, and he wouldn't let Luke tell them, so he's stuck in this half state of secrecy and confession to Luke. Ashton hasn't gone too far yet, not far enough that Luke can't patch him up with gauze, antibiotics, and a long hug. But someday, someday, Luke knows Ashton won't be able to take it anymore, and Ashton will die. And Luke will be all alone.

"Fat fat fat," Luke clawed at his body. "All I am, is fat." - Luke Hemmings is ugly. Luke Hemmings is fat. Luke Hemmings likes to puke. Luke Hemmings despised eating. Luke Hemmings is every negative comment made about him. Luke Hemmings is gay. Luke Hemmings is pretending. Luke Hemmings is damaged goods. Ashton Irwin is hot. Ashton Irwin is skinny. Ashton Irwin loves to eat. Ashton Irwin is smart. Ashton Irwin is amazing. Ashton Irwin is everything Luke needs. Ashton Irwin is gay. Ashton Irwin is pretending. Ashton Irwin is noticing. Ashton Irwin is falling in love.

"i miss this" "miss what?" "us" "i miss us too."

❝I'm torn in two, and I know I shouldn't tell him, but I just can't stop thinking of you. Every night I almost call you just to say it always will be you.❞ © wxnderlessdreams 2014 [completed. prequel to Something I need]

"What would you do if I jumped off this bridge, right in front of your eyes?" "I'd jump with you." ***(Ok I wrote this a while ago and it's so bad bUT ENJOY)***

"I use cutting as an alternative to committing suicide. The blood reminds me I'm alive, and it's oddly comforting. It's my only escape from this hell." WARNING: triggers like self harm are a common occurrence in this particular fan fic, also there's swearing, if that bothers you haha

Life gets better? Try telling that to Ashton Irwin, who's life has only been shit. He doesn't believe in anything or himself anymore, and he's nearing his breaking point. Luke Hemmings is the new kid, and he immediately becomes well known; due to his charming looks and personality. But when he sees the hazel eyed boy sitting alone at lunch, he finds himself making it his goal to make Ashton happy again. Will he fix him before it's too late? Or will Ashton slip right through his fingertips? WARNING: foul language, self harm, suicidal actions/thoughts, and eating disorders.

"Who are you?" All Rights Reserved.© WriteDrunk 2014. Completed.

book ONE This isn't a diary. It's a journal. Only girls do "Diarys". I'm a boy so technically its a journal. Does the name "Journal" go with a book that has a pink cover with purple fuzz lining it? I mean, I could easily cross out the curly words that light up when you press a button that read 'Diary'. All I have to say is thanks Calum for picking me out such a fantastic journal.

2 boys in love with each other, but can't show it, who knew that would tear the band apart. Maybe the band might be okay with 3 people. Band members have changed. No one is the same now. They all live in silence.