To everyone, Alyssa Woods is known as the friendly, pretty, and tenacious captain of the soccer team. But to her, she's shy, self-conscious, and helplessly gay. Well, a helplessly closeted gay. There are reasons that stop her from coming out, ones she repeats to herself daily, one of her favourites being 'I'm not ready.' The crush she has on Leah Bennett isn't going anywhere at this rate, but she's comfortable where she is; not out, not rejected. She isn't new to heartbreak though, her past scars a constant reminder of the fears that dissuade her from taking the leap. And these very fears are what shoves her further into the closet with each memory and each thought. Taking the risk is the last thing on her mind. But what's life without a little risk? After all, you have to risk rejection to be accepted, or else you just might risk not living life at all. {COMPLETED}

If you understand how this feels i'm so sorry. i'm writing this story to show people that things to get better. The events in this story did happen to me too it's based off my life. Your life will get better and if your hurting and you feel comfortable reading this, i hope so much that it helps you. ⚠️TW⚠️ this story contains self harm, ED, blood, violence and rape ‼️I am not promoting any of the negative things in this story they are all just relative to the story‼️ I will make sure to put a TW in the chapters that have these things in them.