and with the deafening mind of hers came a sorrow she submitted to. it was as if she was submerged underwater for years of her life, solely being focused on how everything was amplified beneath the surface. it was all very loud, similar to the volume of river rapids, and maybe the only way for her to subdue it was to plunge into the rapids themselves; allow the current to carry her body as far as it could. because all she wanted was silence, so silence she received. + lowercase intended. alternate universe. sad. sensitive topics. short story.

NOT EDITED "I cannot look into those eyes, eyes that I have learned will judge you, eyes, that will make or break you, no, please no. I can't look into those eyes, because if I look you in the eye, every memory of us laughing together is erased, every memory of us cuddling within the warmth of the blankets, every memory of us staring into each other's eyes, will completely vanish. All I will see is your beautiful face that is no longer mine to admire, all I will see is the way your eyes crinkle in distaste of my presence, all I will see is how much you loathe me. I cannot look you in the eye because all I think about is how much I love you and how much wanna kiss you, I cannot look you in the eye because you do not love me like you used to and you do not want to feel my lips, I cannot look you in the eye because of how much I want to be with you, and how much I wish I had told you to stay, I want to look at you but, I cannot because all I can think about is the smile that remains no more upon your face, I want to kiss you but all I can think about is how much, you are going to laugh at me, if I did." Harry Styles AU | This story is fictional. It has nothing to do with who Harry Styles is as a person, only his physical traits are used. All Rights Reserved © 2016 sunflowerboulevard Original Completion Date: July 4, 2017