[ trust in my self righteous suicide. ] •••• Half dead heroes, their vision tinged with red, trapped somewhere between HELP and I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE struggle to keep fighting even when they have been shaken to their core. They want to keep going, but they've just been hit harder than ever, and they might not be able to shake it this time. •••• 3rd book in the winter series- COMPLETED ***i encourage you to check out my more recent stories: Captured and Sane. this story is old and the writing is god awful

Lacuna: A blank space; a missing part Erin McCall was suppose to be one of S.H.I.E.L.D.'s top recruits. Nick Fury had been desperate to get her into the program since she was 14. With perfect grades and an off the charts SAT score, her future seemed set. It didn't hurt that her father was head of the Bio Mechanics division of S.H.I.E.L.D. along side her brother. But ever since the collapse of S.H.I.E.L.D. caused their deaths, Erin's once solid future seemed to collapse with it. Haunted by the things of her past, she's been a wanderer, traveling all over Europe. Now living in Romania the 8th place she has settled in since leaving everything behind, she happens across the famous Captain America and his team. After saving their lives, Steve tells her of the inevitable war approaching, Erin feels she has no choice but to help in any way she can. Before the Infinity War begins, Steve wants to wake up his best friend, James Buchanan Barnes, from his cryo sleep. Erin could be the key to fixing his destroyed arm... and making him smile again. But when Erin is forced to face the things that haunt her, can she learn to trust Captain America and his team.. and her feelings for the Winter Soldier? •POST CIVIL WAR {spoilers} •follows MCU ---------------- **I don't own any of the fictional Marvel characters, places, or metals. The only characters I own are Erin McCall and her family/friends never mentioned in the Marvel Universe**

Anamnesis: the recollection of things past After waking up from self-induced cryo sleep, Bucky Barnes is determined to remember the man he was before HYDRA took his memories from him and Erin McCall has agreed to help. Now separated from Captain America's team and the safe house in Wakanda the pair are alone and on a mission not only to recover Bucky's memory, but also to find anything that could aid the broken Avengers in the war that's coming. Erin is not only the robotics genius that reconstructed Bucky's vibranium arm but she's also the granddaughter of one of Bucky's best friends from WWII. As their relationship grows and the more she helps Bucky discover about himself, the more she realizes there's more truth to discover about her family's connection with S.H.I.E.L.D., her past, and newly practiced powers. The things they find could give their friends the advantage when the Infinity War arrives. As Erin tries exploring her powers and relationship with Bucky she begins to realize just how complicated things have become... and the more she begins to doubt whether or not she has what it takes to be an Avenger. •SEQUEL TO LACUNA •POST CIVIL WAR {spoilers} •Follows MCU ------ *I don't own any of the Marvel characters! Just Erin and her friends/family never mentioned in Marvel Universe*

❝Just know that from this point on, whatever happens, I'll be with you. I'm not gonna leave your side until you tell me to.❞ . . .in which she helps him find his way back to himself. [BOOK ONE] [Highest ranking: #1 in MCU/fanfiction as of 5/26/18]

[ ORIGINAL BURNT EDGES STORY ] ᵉᵈᶦᵗᶦⁿᵍ ᵇᵉᵍᵃⁿ: ¹⁰/³/¹⁷ ᵉᵈᶦᵗᶦⁿᵍ ᶠᶦⁿᶦˢʰᵉᵈ: ⁹/¹²/¹⁹ ❝what's she doing?❞ ❝she... she got him out of... he went back to being bucky.❞ [ bucky barnes ] ✦✦✦✦✦ © fantasticfoursome__ , 2016 [before the winter soldier-after civil war/alternate timeline]

"𝐼'𝑚 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑛 𝐼 𝑜𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠.'' "𝑀𝑎𝑦𝑏𝑒 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡....'' •Bucky: quiet and reserved •Y/n: friendly and sincere •The Avengers Tower: absolute chaos After the war, the whole team has made up and moved in together. Even after that, Bucky still feels like a burden to everyone except Steve. Y/n hasn't told him about her similar past, but how would he react if she did? Follow a story of a budding romance, insane friendships, and a very annoyed Tony. Playlist featured in various chapters ♫ Contains coarse language. Recommended 14+ (STILL BEING WRITTEN) November 2020 - #1 in buckyxreader February 2021 - #1 in marvelfanfic April 2021 - #3 in readerxcharacter