I wake up to the thoughts of tomorrow and how every corner is a new opportunity to smile. I have tasted fear and it was regretful. I have poisoned my body to find a cure. I have stained my heart with ink and I will continue to do so. I wake up to the thoughts of yesterday and how every maze... no matter how beautiful, they will always have an exit. I wake up to the thoughts of a future and it's scary to breathe cigarettes and wine. but I have made a bed out of the thin slices I cut from those who I've given my heart to. A pulsing heart racing back and forth, the pillow... you're reading it. I use sedative to help with the restlessness. I use drugs to trap myself into believing that I can be loved because I used to feel love, and now? I'm used to being alone, I have met the greatest people on underground society and they've given me a home, I have made lovers out of my demons and I have kissed my sins one time too many and let me tell you, if I ever forget to apologize because I'm weak and numb from the doses of white gunmans inside of hell sweat cabinets... I'm sorry that I can't be better. I'm weak. ° ° ° " I owe myself the biggest apology for putting up with what I didn't deserve." Red💋 💃MahikaNiAyana

Underground Society Brotherhood (BadBoys Series#6) ꨄ MAGNUS GLAZED LEFUR ꨄ -Son of Prick Lefur and Destiny Hedrex- From the story of Assassin Series ⚔5 'Angel of Mine' ⚔⚔⚔ When you feel too much pain and grief. You are unknowingly covering your heart with ice. You are already building high and impregnable walls around it. You are not aware that that is changing. You don't just let people into your life. You think they will all lie to you. Even in small things you are scared because you feel when you are hurt you really can't handle it. You're so full you're so low. Messy but that's really it. Whatever you whisper to yourself that you will be okay too, but you know not, not yet. Maybe a long time. There is no guarantee that you will be able to return to the way you used to be. The 'YOU'' before you get hurt. ••• 'It was not my ego. It was my heart. It's bleeding. ' MaGnUs ꨄ This is his story.. His Stone Cold Heart = Every Great Man does three things in life: Explore Dream & Discover = -This story is written in Taglish- -Rated 18- 💃MahikaNiAyana