Billie Eilish walks into a tattoo shop at 1:12 a.m. She doesn't want ink. She doesn't want pictures. She just doesn't want to be alone. Nyx Calder works nights for a reason. Silence suits her. Pain doesn't scare her. And famous girls with haunted eyes aren't her problem-until Billie keeps coming back. What starts as late-night conversations and borrowed cigarettes turns into something heavier. Something dangerous. Billie is unraveling under the weight of her own mind-depression, insomnia, intrusive thoughts she never talks about. Nyx doesn't try to save her. She just stays. Hands steady. Voice low. Presence grounding. But intimacy gets complicated when one of you belongs to the world, and the other refuses to. Still Breathing Next to You is a slow-burn, WLW story about desire, mental illness, control, and choosing to stay alive when someone finally sees you in the dark.

When seventeen-year-old Olivia takes a midnight walk in the downtown streets of la with the intention of taking her own life, she meets someone she never thought she'd ever see again. As Olivia struggles with multiple mental illnesses, Billie and her reconnect after several years. Billie doesn't just save her that night, she helps Liv begin the process of loving life again. Depression Anxiety Eating disorder Self-harm gxg Achieved 🥈 in #billieeilish 🥈 in #gxg 🥇 in #eilish

"i'm scared. i'm scared because nobody has ever made me feel the way you make me feel. i'm scared because nobody has ever cared for me as much as you do" warning: this book contains mentions of, abuse, self harm, sexual harassment, assault, rape and other mature content. this book is inspired by "come out and play" by billie eilish. it's also inspired by "cinnamon girl" by lana del ray and "gilded lily" By Cults. Also the vibe of it is the MV for 'male fantasy'

"I can not just be your friend, I'm not gon do that to myself."

"you don't think i'm weird because of my tourette's?"