Have always wondered what my life would look like if my father was not part of a terrorist group or if my mother doesn't hate my guts or the fact I can't be the real me . Sometimes I wonder if am good or bad ? Why I had to deceive people I truly love ? My name is Ivy I am a military nurse trained to kill the man who killed my brother At least that's what I was told . I need a normal life like every normal person . I want to be the real me and not the person my father made me be I can't have love I wonder if I would ever be loved