Elijah Jude has an illness. But the illness dosent control who he is. After his abusive father gets sent to prison, the voices came. The doctors say he dissociates to stay alive. But it's much more complicated than that. Elijah has to learn to navigate through an unfamiliar world while dealing with Dissociative Identity Disorder, and severe P.T.S.D.

This is Benji's story (from Breaking Finn) and how he met Ajax. Benji is 19, he suffers from A.D.H.D. (Attention Deficit and Hyperactivity Disorder), but with a lot of support from his family and his best friend he has learned to cope well with it and is now in his first year at U.C.L.A. His friend Jamie brings him with her to a club and he is introduced into the bdsm lifestyle. His interest is piqued and after training to be a sub, he is matched with a Dom, Ajax. This is a bxb (or mxm) story with light bdsm and explicit sexual encounters. If you are at all offended by any of this, please, just walk away from this story. My writing is certainly not for everyone and that's okay. I use models in my stories to represent characters. For me it helps me to fully engage with the character if I have a face and I think the readers might feel the same. However, my use of their pictures has no connection with the models themselves. I do not know any of them (unfortunately), I do not know their sexual preferences or their lifestyle so any depiction in my story has nothing to do with the person in real life. I also like to add songs/videos to my chapters and most of the time the music reflects the chapter somehow, so it's definitely worth listening to them if you are able. My stories are works of fiction. They are subject to copyright legislation, so please do not steal my story. If you steal an idea here or there, I don't really care. If my story inspires you to write something, that's a good thing. There are two very talented writers currently writing stories about some of the characters in this story. This is something I asked them to do and am very excited where they are taking their stories. The two spin-offs are about Eric & Stephan and Rob & Peter. I encourage you to read them. Eric & Stephan's story is "Lessons in the Male Anatomy" and Rob & Peter's story is "Anxiously Yours". They are both fabulous! :)

[Book 2] COMPLETED (approx 99,831 words) MATURE 18+ Marcus is finally coming to terms with what has happened and is doing okay. But what will happen when an old friend calls and says he is in the hospital with a stab wound? Will Marcus be able to stay strong this time around? Or will he be broken? WARNING This story includes some very mature themes including sexual assault so please read at your own risk! This book is also a sequel so read The Rebel has Feelings Too before this one!