Ashton is okay right now. He's always like this after a bad bout. He starts off saying that the world is his oyster and he loves everyone, but when the energy and fresh success fades, so does he. Luke knows. He knows about all of Ashton's problems. He knows about the time Ashton was bullied nearly to the brink, the family deaths and friend losses, and the ups and downs, the latter of which seem to be more common lately. It's been so easy lately for Ashton to slip after a joke gone wrong, or a jab on Twitter. Ashton always says he's sorry, repeating it again and again if only to convince himself. Luke knows he's sorry, knows that he can't help it. And he'll sit by the bathtub for hours, holding Ashton, to make sure that he knows someone loves him. None of the other boys know. Ashton couldn't bring himself to tell them and face their disapproving stares too, and he wouldn't let Luke tell them, so he's stuck in this half state of secrecy and confession to Luke. Ashton hasn't gone too far yet, not far enough that Luke can't patch him up with gauze, antibiotics, and a long hug. But someday, someday, Luke knows Ashton won't be able to take it anymore, and Ashton will die. And Luke will be all alone.

Mute - the refraining of speech; temporarily speechless. "I am afraid to show you who I really am, because if I show you who I really am, you might not like it-and that's all I got." No one really knew what had gone on in the deranged head of Luke's. No one knew exactly what happened to him either within the time period of this year and the last, but no one cared to learn, anyway. After all, he was mute. Always seemed as if he was, and always seemed he'd be like that forever. And the last thing someone wants to do, is talk to someone who just won't talk back.

book ONE This isn't a diary. It's a journal. Only girls do "Diarys". I'm a boy so technically its a journal. Does the name "Journal" go with a book that has a pink cover with purple fuzz lining it? I mean, I could easily cross out the curly words that light up when you press a button that read 'Diary'. All I have to say is thanks Calum for picking me out such a fantastic journal.

After being sent to a summer camp because his mum is sick and tired of his 'bad boy attitude', Luke Hemmings meets Ashton Irwin. The boy drives Luke crazy all summer, but in two different ways. The overexcited boy used to drive Luke insane with annoyance, but as summer comes to an end, Luke realizes he might've been falling for the boy all summer.

Ashton and Luke are polar opposites. Ashton's gay and Luke is a homophobe. They're put together for a project and they go to Lukes house. Luke learns more about Ashton. Will he change his mind about Ashton and fall for him?

5 Seconds of Summer & One Direction -crossover- Multiple Ships. warnings: triggering. anorexia, self-harm, depression, bullying, swearing. Disclaimer: I do not own anyone in this story. ~ "Want an oreo?" Who knew one sentence could change someone's life so much?

"Fat fat fat," Luke clawed at his body. "All I am, is fat." - Luke Hemmings is ugly. Luke Hemmings is fat. Luke Hemmings likes to puke. Luke Hemmings despised eating. Luke Hemmings is every negative comment made about him. Luke Hemmings is gay. Luke Hemmings is pretending. Luke Hemmings is damaged goods. Ashton Irwin is hot. Ashton Irwin is skinny. Ashton Irwin loves to eat. Ashton Irwin is smart. Ashton Irwin is amazing. Ashton Irwin is everything Luke needs. Ashton Irwin is gay. Ashton Irwin is pretending. Ashton Irwin is noticing. Ashton Irwin is falling in love.

"Who are you?" All Rights Reserved.© WriteDrunk 2014. Completed.