Have you ever wanted to die so bad its all you can think about? How you would do it? When? Where? Whether or not you'd leave a not? What would it say? Well I have everyday. As I cry myself to sleep I wonder "Would it even matter if I killed myself"

Restrict. Binge. Repeat. That was all she knew. That was all she did. And she wasn't planning on stopping anytime soon. --- Sunny, a seventeen-year-old girl, hummed to herself quietly as she took out a stick of gum. Her black earbuds emitted music as she searched up the calories to the candy her mom gave her earlier. She tilted her head as she saw the number. It was workable. She wouldn't go over her calorie limit. She put her phone away, and for a moment, for a stilling moment... she wondered if this was the pain she'll have to deal with forever just to be skinny. . . . Story includes: anorexia and binge eating. Credits to @LunarWrites__ for the cover!

Why me? Why did I have to be part of that 2% of people with eating disorders? Why did I have to be juggled between treatment centers and doctors during the "best" years of my life? This is a memoir about eating disorders, yes, but not about having on, about where life leaves you afterwards.

I'm Maddy Merrill and this story is about my experience having anorexia. I wrote this story to inspire others and show that it is possible to overcome your eating disorder. You are strong and beautiful and you don't need your eating disorder. Trust me.

Trigger Warning//Anorexia story Book 1 of the Loving Yourself Hurts series. Lyra is 15 and she feels alone. She has a few friends, but she just wants to be loved. She wants someone to hold her hand when she needs it. Someone who will let her cry on their shoulder. But she's not good enough. No one likes her like that because she's flawed. That's why she has to be perfect. She has to be skinnier. Completed: 2018 Edited: 2023

The urge to be skinny.

Unknown: Hey baby girl ;) You: Uhhhh I think you have the wrong number Unknown: Shit that was for my girlfriend Completed January 29th, 2018

This is a true story about how I dealt with my self-induced anorexia. (It's a short story so I split it up by making each paragraph one chapter. Sorry, I haven't used Wattpad in a while.)

(Very Old)They don't know why she is the way she is, so they torment her. They don't understand her logic, but to her it's so simple. She has been conditioned to fit society's expectations. But she seems to fail everytime.