a freshman in college and looking for fun, nini roberts is starting on a blank slate. new people, new campus, new schedule, new living space. she's leaving her traumatic teenage high school experiences in the past and is more than ready to begin her adult life. however, the past is never too far behind and when it comes back to haunt nini she struggles to find something constant and dependable in her life. trying her best to ignore her problems, she unexpectedly crosses paths with westshore university's most popular and well known basketball player.

**PAUSED** life has always been abnormal for 18-year-old auden sinclair. growing up with a family that owns the town's cemetery was just the icing on the cake. at a young age she learned to be independent and it's her most valued trait. trevor sinclair, her father, never treated her like his own let alone tolerate her. christy sinclair, however, tried to care for her daughter as best she could. but once trevor's dark appearance was there, christy was on his side. always. as auden got older, she quickly learned to not ask questions and to keep to herself. being a young adult now and facing a tragic accident, her continuous silence leads her to accidentally uncover her family's darkest secret. along the way she crosses paths with a mysterious man who impacts her life in ways she never thought were possible. ~~~~ "you've always been a disgrace to this world." ~~~~ "my heart will always beat for you. and only you." (credits to the plot go to lossifilms on tiktok)

ricky bowen has never truly experienced the magic of christmas. growing up with a complicated childhood and those complications following him into adulthood, he's now known as "the grinch", which causes him to spend the holiday season in an office cubicle. nobody has ever bothered him about it, so he assumes nobody will this year either. nini roberts is what people call "christmas if it were a person". channeling her christmas spirit pretty much all year, she comes a surprise to the town's "grinch".

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alcoholic, abusive parents. something nini and her little brother have had to live with their entire lives, nini being 17 and her brother being 6. nini's be forced to take over all the adulting responsibilities while managing high school. now's the time where her senior year is about to begin. but, nini's best friend, gina, hasn't stopped talking about the four best friends that are moving to salt lake. talk has been shifting through the community all summer, especially between girls, since according to gina they're the "hottest, mysterious, and most popular guys ever." nini's mind is full of everything but. she couldn't care less about some stupid boys. they've never been helpful, right?

the multiverse portal opens for a split second before closing yet again. your friendly neighborhood spider-man, also known as ricky bowen, is met with a couple new "friends". or at least, that's what ricky bowen and nini salazar-roberts think they are.

two faced; insincere and deceitful. take it more literal. nini roberts is a normal 17 year old junior at east high right? wrong. behind her quiet and timid character at school is a fearless and brave young woman, always ready for action. daughter of grayson and nadia roberts, the owners of the worlds most famous, yet secretive agency, nini is one of the top undercover spies. when the world goes into a state of panic after hearing horrific news, the agency pairs the two best spies to work together...who also happen to have completely different personalities and opinions. adding to it, with nini's independence and need to block new people out after multiple heartbreaks, will they be able to forget about their differences for the sake of the human population?

finally. the sun is shining bright and nini roberts, a young women who's mainly turned her focus towards work after a devasting heartbreak, is letting loose. going into her summer vacation with the mindset of stress free all changes within a matter of minutes when a familiar face seems to intrude her perfect paradise thoughts...

"𝐢 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐢 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞." "𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐞...𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐥𝐥 𝐝𝐨 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧." in which a car accident between a married couple causes for ricky bowen to forget the past three years that he'd lived through - and that includes meeting the love of his life

𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞, 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬... -in which nina salazar-roberts believed that she could find her soulmate; though being in denial of who he is.