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Rylandrien suffer from mental illness. What's the worst part? He holds himself responsible. He believes he deserved it. That no one would ever adore him in the first place. That no one gives a damn.
Meet Zeth, the transferee student who don't know what should he do on life. solemn and mature man respected by many, but there's something he's curious about.He keeps searching and searching for those eyes who he have seen in his dreams. But how could the be? the eyes he saw in the dream were exactly right in this person in front of him.
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Seeing the one you love with someone else penetrates your heart like a blade, tears running down your cheeks like a never-ending cascade; your life, your love, is devastated because of that one other man who always had to be better than you seem to be.
When I first fell in love, I believed this could remain constantly and that there was no need to resurface since our love can never be destroyed. That hole I dug and fell down for you has all of our memories as well as all of the things you brought me.
I'm trapped within, cut off from the rest of the world and him, with only the awful memories of knowing I'm not good enough and that you don't love me. Every gift and memory pulls me further away from this world and more into my own depression.
I still cared for him, but he doesn't care for me....
I'm wondering if he ever did.....