you're gone, and I'm stuck here wanting you.

What would you do if your best friend committed suicide? What would you do if there was no way that you could help them? All there is left, is 199 letters. The only thing they left behind for you. © 2014, Ashley (larrystyIinson), All rights reserved

❝Say something, I'm giving up on you. I'll be the one, if you want me to. Anywhere, I would've followed you. Say something, I'm giving up on you.❞ [warnings: strong language & sexual content]

IF YOU HAVE ISSUES RELATED TO ANYTHING IN THIS STORY PLEASE DONT BE AFRAID TO REACH OUT FOR HELP National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255) Crisis Text Line Text 741741 Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline 1-800-4-A-Child or 1-800-422-4453 LGBT National Hotline 1-888-843-4564 The Trevor Project 1-866-488-7386 or Text "START" to 678678 Louis Tomlinson was raised in a Christian house. He believed in god but he didn't believe the church's teachings. He longed to express himself but his mother was strict to her Christian ways. Louis was gay but he kept it a secret along with the way he wanted to live. Whenever his mother got mad she would hit him then claim, 'I would never abuse you, abuse is a sin. I do what I do to you as diciplin' He just wants to be free. He thought he was trapped until one day when Harry shows up at the bakery he works at. Harry Styles is your typical punk. Screamo music, piercings, tattoos, spikes and chains, eyeliner. He was hated by the town for being different and openly gay. No one ever got to know the real him because in truth he was the sweetest boy ever and was truly caring. When he meets the struggling Louis Tomlinson he can't help but feel intrigued by the older boy. *Sorry I suck at these, just read the story to find out hopefully it will be better than this. This story will have swearing, self-harm, and boyxboy. If any of these bother you please don't read. Also if your last name is Tomlinson or Styles or you know someones who is, I highly suggest you don't read this story.*

Harry Styles was depressed. No one would bother to mess with him, they were all too afraid. He was really tough, I guess you can say he was a "bad boy". He hated his life and he hated school. He had one friend and his name was Zayn. Harry hated everyone else because they were always so happy, and had no idea what he was going through. Especially Louis Tomlinson. Louis was the most popular kid in school, the class clown. Harry despised him. But what happens when one day they had to team up for a science project worth 60% of their grade? Will they get along in order to finish the project? Or will Harry refuse to work with the guy who makes his life miserable.

Louis Tomlinson is a nobody at school. He's known as the 'nerd' and not many kids want to be around him. He hasn't had many friends, let alone someone to talk to, other than his family and one cousin Liam Payne who helps him through the tough times. But can a jock like Harry Styles change that? Or will someone get in the way?

Louis is a shy but excellent student. What happens when he is asked to tutor the careless punk Harry Styles?

"It's true, I crave you." Where Louis' a hardcore fanboy and loves Harry Styles a lot. (One Direction is Four Direction)

"He's a delicate thing. Like a rose. He's gorgeous but he has his thorns. Fresh as dew. I just want to bundle him up in warmth and keep him happy, always." Cover credits to @harryonmen on Twitter © larryslittlest 2015. All rights reserved

••complete 2014•• in which two boys sit and drink tea together, but they never reveal their names