I have cut myself in the past, and kind of still do, not a lot goes through my mind personally. But I suffer from a lot of emotional pain, I cut myself to get the rid of the numb kind of pain where the physical pain overpowers the emotional pain. I don't really think about it, I just do it because I know it will work (I guess I just decieve myself) till i meet a boy who saves my live from the living hell it was....

*Watty Awards 2013 - Winner of Youtube Celebrities in fanfiction Zoe Sugg and Alfie Deyes are just two teenagers who have fallen in love with the internet and each other. Both have become successful on a well known sight called youtube and are considered Internet famous by many. Wanting to have some privacy under the curious gaze of their millions of subscribers, Zoe and Alfie find it hard to keep their little secret undiscovered. One slip up from their fellow friend Jim Chapman and all hell breaks loose as viewers find out the truth behind the harmless, yet truthful ship. #ZALFIE. Featuring: Zoe Sugg, Alfie Deyes, Marcus Butler, Niomi Smart, Joe Sugg, Caspar Lee, MynamesChai, Sprinkleofglitter, Sawyer Hartman, Dan Howell, Phil Lester, Funforlouis, Tyler Oakley, Troye Sivan, Jim Chapman, Tanya Burr, Jack and Finn and more! *Based on a true story and true events will be included (summer in the city, vidcon etc)*