joe sugg had never been good at math. in fact, it was seven years after he'd left school that he found out two halves make a whole definition of abyss; the regions of hell conceived of as a bottomless pit Trigger Warning: mentions of suicide/depression I HAVE CHANGED MY USERNAME SINCE WRITING THIS. NAME ON THE COVER IS DIFFERENT TO NOW. cover cred to: katriin (wattpad: peachjyri)

"In a society that has abolished all adventure, the only adventure left is to abolish that society." We as humans paint our individuality with colors that have already been selected for us. And we aren't bothered: perhaps we're too obsessed with self-preservation. Our masquerades, left too long, slip easily and comfortably into reality. By nature, we are a predetermined race. In a world where everyone is too sane to have common sense, the line between the good and the bad has never been so blurred. And we have never been less binary. • • • [On Hold] • • • 1st Place Fanfiction in the Elimination Awards. Fanfiction Winner of the BlankSheets Contest. 1st Place Fanfiction in the July Mystical Awards. Fanfiction Winner of the Wunderkind Awards. 1st Place Fanfiction in the Royalty Awards. Best Fanfiction of 2017 Global Awards. [SPOILERS] [Potential offensive, disturbing, uncomfortable, or triggering material.] [All characters and plots, other than those created on my own whim, belong to the BBC.]

Anita Burns has just moved from rainy Washington to sunny California where everything is different. With grades, friends, cheerleading, health issues and family to worry about, this new life can be overwhelming. Not wanting to feel alone like she used to in Washington, Anita sets out to find people that will stay by her side through thick and thin. Among her new companions is Dylan, a mysteriously attractive boy who catches her eye despite others doubts about him. Facing the many obstacles and trials that make up her life, Anita's strength is put to the test as well as her bonds with family and friends. Started: 7 April, 2014 Finished: 13 April, 2016