This is a meradd fan fic!! A story where back in New York unknown to Derek her ex husband, the night he found her and Mark in bed, Mark was abusing her. A story about how Addison struggles and Meredith helps her, and Addison helps Meredith, they need each other without realising it. ⚠️TW- self harm, ED, suicide, rape& abuse are a part of this story so please don't read if you are easily triggered, I am going to make this the lest triggering as possible( i Struggle with self harm, suicidal thoughts- in the past-, adhd, depression and anxiety so I'm going to try my best to be as accurate as possible.⚠️

It's been a year since the events of 'Brown sugar and lavender'. In this sequel, Addison and Meredith have to adjust to married life with their son and the hopes of another baby. Everything happens for a reason, and through Meredith and Addison's struggle, love, and loss, their love for one another never fades. ~ I looked at her, covered in icing with a paper party hat on her head, and I smiled. She loved Ben more than I'd ever seen someone love another person, and in turn, it made me love her more than I thought possible. Going to bed that night, exhausted but content, I was grateful for her warmth next to me. I didn't want this with anybody else.

If you love someone, what would you do to be with them? For Addison Montgomery, it meant she would follow them to the ends of the earth. Which was why she followed her husband to Seattle. But when she meets Meredith Grey, suddenly what she came for and what she really wants isn't the same thing. Meredith is something new, something amazingly, perfectly new. What Addison feels, thinks and wants all changes upon meeting her husbands mistress. Love has a new meaning, dynamics of affairs shift, and biology takes a back seat as Addison finds herself, against all odds, in love with her husbands mistress.