This is a diary about how fucked up my brain is. HUGE TRIGGER WARNING. I will be talking about self harm, suicide, eating disorders, phobias, mental illness, sexual assault and there will be cursing among other things. If you are easily triggered or do not like these topics please do not read this. This is not fiction, these are actual thoughts and I might also be talking about actual events as well. Please note that I am an adult and of legal age. Despite what the title implies this is not a suicide note. Consider this my Hannah Baker tapes without the actual suicide. This will be written in a poetic writing style. I doubt anyone will read this. But if anyone does. I hope you enjoy my messy mind and messy life.

"Is happiness really a myth". A collection of the most cherished pieces of my soul: my poems. The things I wrote when I loved, when I hated, when I raged, when I dared and when from reality, I escaped. My poems are a way for me to get away from the world, my escapism. #3 for poetry{29 may 22} #1 for poem{11-16 june 22} #1 for poetry {2 july 22} #15 for poem {3-5 july 22} #3 for sad poetry {2 oct 22} #1 for sadwords {19 oct 22} #2 for sadwords {5 nov 22} #1 for sadwords {20 nov 22}

As a mental illness survivor. I decided to write poems about whats it's like to have a mental illness. If you are struggling please know you're not alone. You don't deserve to live like that. You can beat it even if it doesn't go away. I believe in you.

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