When I go back to the first day, day one I always think I started on the wrong foot when it comes to me and god, yes god. it's not like i hated him or i don't believe in god i know he exist because of the things i went through god is real and he pretty much hates me or that's my thoughts speaking, I mean even if i want to say it out loud i don't think people around me will allow it or prove it so i always kept that idea to myself, ironically enough my name meant life and i think my biggest fear is living, i do pretty much hate life, ensung. so i always went with the nickname seng or sen but not life because i was never full of life.