book ONE This isn't a diary. It's a journal. Only girls do "Diarys". I'm a boy so technically its a journal. Does the name "Journal" go with a book that has a pink cover with purple fuzz lining it? I mean, I could easily cross out the curly words that light up when you press a button that read 'Diary'. All I have to say is thanks Calum for picking me out such a fantastic journal.

Life gets better? Try telling that to Ashton Irwin, who's life has only been shit. He doesn't believe in anything or himself anymore, and he's nearing his breaking point. Luke Hemmings is the new kid, and he immediately becomes well known; due to his charming looks and personality. But when he sees the hazel eyed boy sitting alone at lunch, he finds himself making it his goal to make Ashton happy again. Will he fix him before it's too late? Or will Ashton slip right through his fingertips? WARNING: foul language, self harm, suicidal actions/thoughts, and eating disorders.

Ashton is okay right now. He's always like this after a bad bout. He starts off saying that the world is his oyster and he loves everyone, but when the energy and fresh success fades, so does he. Luke knows. He knows about all of Ashton's problems. He knows about the time Ashton was bullied nearly to the brink, the family deaths and friend losses, and the ups and downs, the latter of which seem to be more common lately. It's been so easy lately for Ashton to slip after a joke gone wrong, or a jab on Twitter. Ashton always says he's sorry, repeating it again and again if only to convince himself. Luke knows he's sorry, knows that he can't help it. And he'll sit by the bathtub for hours, holding Ashton, to make sure that he knows someone loves him. None of the other boys know. Ashton couldn't bring himself to tell them and face their disapproving stares too, and he wouldn't let Luke tell them, so he's stuck in this half state of secrecy and confession to Luke. Ashton hasn't gone too far yet, not far enough that Luke can't patch him up with gauze, antibiotics, and a long hug. But someday, someday, Luke knows Ashton won't be able to take it anymore, and Ashton will die. And Luke will be all alone.

book TWO (READ BOOK ONE FIRST IF YOU HAVE NOT) I will fully admit this is a diary. There is no way I will fight it.I'm here to talk about my feelings, my thoughts, my crushes..And I'm totally okay with it. I have no shame at all.I'm okay with the fact that the cover is a bright purple with curly letters that read 'diary' I'm also okay with the fact that it lights up when you press a button.Its pretty god damn cool. But what has been lurking in my mind recently is a boy. a certain curly headed boy..I'm sure you know him, he knows the diary world quite well.. Matter of fact- I've read his diary. I only know a bit though, he hates my ex Amanda, he hates me, but adores me at the same time, hes highly afraid of michael clifford for some unknown reason... Oh, and, he'd do anything to date me. Fabulous..

5 Seconds of Summer & One Direction -crossover- Multiple Ships. warnings: triggering. anorexia, self-harm, depression, bullying, swearing. Disclaimer: I do not own anyone in this story. ~ "Want an oreo?" Who knew one sentence could change someone's life so much?

"Who are you?" All Rights Reserved.© WriteDrunk 2014. Completed.

"Love will always be a stronger bond then blood, Ashton."