All these foreign feelings I encounter on a daily basis that language can't interpret how I feel. But this is my mind trying to tell me my story. Bare with me, my mind's naive

For a year, every night I sat by the window, just watching the world while listening to the wind and the trains coming past. Sometimes I would write a few poems, full of every thought that came to me. I was full of darkness, and I needed a way out. This was it. But it still felt like something was hidden inside of me, so I thought, why not share it with the world, even if no one sees or understands it.

𝙰𝚛𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚢 (𝙿𝚘𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚊) 𝚒𝚜 𝚠𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚗 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚞𝚛𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚙𝚒𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚝𝚢 , 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚞𝚒𝚕𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚐𝚝𝚑𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚋𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊 𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞'𝚛𝚎 𝚏𝚊𝚌𝚒𝚗𝚐. 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚢 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚞𝚜 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚎 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚘𝚏 𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚒𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚑𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚗 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚊 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚘𝚗, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝'𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝙸 𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚖𝚢 𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚙𝚒𝚛𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚘 𝚠𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚙𝚘𝚎𝚖s. 𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎...𝚂𝚊𝚍𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜...𝙷𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜... 𝚂𝚝𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚐𝚝𝚑𝚜...𝚆𝚎𝚊𝚔𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚜...𝙿𝚊𝚒𝚗...𝙳𝚎𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗...𝙿𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚢...𝙳𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖𝚜...𝙲𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚊𝚐𝚎...𝚎𝚝𝚌. E𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚑 𝚘𝚏 𝚞𝚜 𝚑𝚊𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚊 𝚕𝚘𝚝, 𝚛𝚒𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚛𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚛 𝚌𝚘𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚞𝚙𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚍𝚘𝚠𝚗𝚜.

the questions left unanswered, the revelations not-asked for, the secrets which pour out of one's mouth when faced with the vast inky sky that does nothing but listen. all the Midnight Fantasies that might have been true, but are not. and suddenly, you are lost in your altered version of reality. | started august 2nd, 2021 | | complete |

In these pages, you'll find a wandering mind, A teenager's thoughts, neither bound nor confined. No single theme ties these verses together, Each line a whisper, light as a feather. So, as you turn these pages with care, Know that you're glimpsing a mind laid bare. Each poem a piece of a much larger whole, A window into the workings of a youthful soul. These words are born of turmoil and strife, Emotions raging, feelings held in life. The silence screams, the heart does cry, And in these lines, a soul tries to fly. This is my world, unfiltered and true, A canvas of thoughts, in every hue. So take what you will, leave what you might, For this is a journey into the endless night. Hope u like them ps. I have written something abt cricket, so all those cricket nerds hudle around

''You drew stars around my scars, now I'm bleeding..'' A book written as way of introspecting ,to correct all the wrongs and to forgive myself. Welcome to my world, a world of pain, suffering , loss and heartbreak, a world of a psychopath.

(Formerly went by the name "Emotions") "The words in here are some from my head, my heart, inspiration from movies or books I've watched or read. Transforming them into my own words I have attempted to put my creation out to the world." ~pen needs soul ⚠️ (The pictures used in this book are not mine. It's credit goes to the original creators. Incase I use any of my pictures, I'll make sure to mention it. )