Stray Kids became more and more famous and it couldn't go better. At least it made the appearance from the outside. Behind the cameras, there was a broken leader who no longer knew where he belonged. Bangchan had feelings that he was sure he would never get back. To make matters worse, the other members hardly seemed to pay attention to him. He blamed himself,thinking he did something wrong. His mind wandered into dark places and the members didn't even notice. Or maybe they don't even care. Warning: Self-harming content, blood, suicide, violence, hate Lonely - Bang Chan Started: January 25 2024 Ended: February 08 2025

"ɪ'ᴍ ꜱᴏ ʟᴏɴᴇʟʏ ꜰᴀʟʟɪɴɢ ꜱʟᴏᴡʟʏ" "ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴡɪʟʟ ɪ ꜱᴛᴏᴘ ꜰᴀʟʟɪɴɢ?" --- Chan is chasing something-relief, escape, control. But the higher he goes, the further he falls. But when you're falling, can you really tell which way is up? Warning: substance abuse, addiction, self harm, drinking, smoking, vaping, depression, drugs "I can stop whenever I want." "Then stop." "...I don't want to." Falling Up- Bang Chan Started: February 09 2025 Ended:

["ᴀ ᴍᴀᴢᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴍᴇᴍᴏʀɪᴇꜱ ᴀᴘᴘᴇᴀʀꜱ ᴀꜱ ɪꜰ ᴛᴏᴅᴀʏ'ꜱ ᴍᴇ ꜱᴀᴡ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀꜱᴛ ᴍᴇ"] What if everything that made you who you are... vanished overnight? Bang Chan was the heart of Stray Kids - their leader, their brother, their anchor. Idol, producer, perfectionist. Until one rainy night, when a tragic accident stole everything. When he wakes up in a sterile hospital room, he remembers nothing. Not his name. Not the language on the signs. Not the faces of the boys who cry at his bedside. His mind is a maze of emptiness - no past, no identity, not even the knowledge of how to walk, talk, or feel. Warnings: amnesia, injury, memory loss, heavy, accident, re-learning life Maze Of Memories Started: June 07 2025 Ended:

"I'm fine." "You haven't slept in four days, hyung." "You're shaking." "...Am I? Everyone knows Bang Chan doesn't sleep. It's practically a joke in the industry, another mark of his dedication as the perfect leader. He's the leader who stays up for everyone, who works twice as hard and never says no. But behind the music, the smiles, and the studio lights, something is breaking. He's been awake for days. Weeks. Maybe months. He's losing time. Hearing things. Forgetting who he is when no one's looking. And still, he keeps going, because that's what's expected of him. Until he can't anymore. ⸻ ⚠️ Warnings: Insomnia, Psychosis, Hallucinations ,Substance use, Medical hospitalization, strong language,Angst, dissociation,Unreliable reality ⸻ Started: July 29 2025