Ashton's life has turned upside down. He's fallen in love with his best friend, and his depression's started up again, but now it's even worse than ever. Ashton becomes really good at hiding his feelings, but is hiding them really a good decision?

"Hey, Ash. You don't remember me. I'm your boyfriend, Luke. We're in a band, with our best mates, Calum and Michael. You... uh, well you're suicidal. That's what got you in here. You tried to kill yourself. But you don't remember that either, do you? Huh, the doctor says you might never remember these things. Ever. I miss the times where you were too shy to say,'I love you' unless I said it first. But, I guess, in a way, this is a good thing. I might have lost you, but now you don't remember what you hate about yourself. In itself, that's good. Now I don't have to see you hurting. But now, everybody has to see me hurting. I miss you so much, Ash, but I can't tell you that. It'd freak you out, and then, I'd have lost you for good. I'm just going to have to hold on to the slight possibility that you'll remember me to get myself through this, Ash, because, otherwise, I don't think I'll be able to handle this. I love you, Luke x." ~Please read the first book first 'You Don't Hear My Cries

"Why are you crying?" "Cause I'm not normal" "Here, eat some Doritos, they always make me happy" ***** The one where Luke's always eating Doritos, but Ashton never seems to be eating anything #8- Lashton Trigger Warning: anorexia, self harm, abuse, rape- please please be careful when you read this

5 Seconds of Summer are a few shows away from the end of the Where We Are tour back in 2014. Next, they're going to be selling out concerts, playing in stadiums, and living their dreams even more than they are currently. But just because things are wonderful on the outside, doesn't mean things are scratch-free under the surface. Luke is battling a war against himself, though he would never admit to it. He thinks he's completely fine; he's not doing anything out of the ordinary. He's just improving himself. Cutting out junk food and adding in some exercise isn't harmful. But obsessing over weight, restricting food intake, being afraid to eat? That's a different story... But Luke is handling it. Luke is in control. At least, that what he thinks. Ashton sees Luke's behavior otherwise. or the one where Luke is struggling with an eating disorder, but doesn't believe he has a problem. Lashton // Luke centric

"Fat fat fat," Luke clawed at his body. "All I am, is fat." - Luke Hemmings is ugly. Luke Hemmings is fat. Luke Hemmings likes to puke. Luke Hemmings despised eating. Luke Hemmings is every negative comment made about him. Luke Hemmings is gay. Luke Hemmings is pretending. Luke Hemmings is damaged goods. Ashton Irwin is hot. Ashton Irwin is skinny. Ashton Irwin loves to eat. Ashton Irwin is smart. Ashton Irwin is amazing. Ashton Irwin is everything Luke needs. Ashton Irwin is gay. Ashton Irwin is pretending. Ashton Irwin is noticing. Ashton Irwin is falling in love.

Luke Hemmings is on the football team and is very popular among his fellow students. He is smart, but he has his flaws. He doesn't associate often with people who he finds to be 'lower' than him; this being based on social status. Ashton Irwin loves attention. He likes to start drama, and this makes him less liked and at the bottom of the high school food chain. Soon enough, when senior years starts and people start drifting from him he begins to self-harm to pull them back in. He would show them his cuts, but people weren't having it. They knew his game. But Luke didn't. One day Luke would see these cuts on Ashton's wrist and Luke becomes determined to help the boy who doesn't really need it. **Short Story**

Ashton Irwin is the "weird boy" of the school, only having one friend When he gets paired with the jock of the school, Luke Hemmings, for a project, they get closer Side ship: Malum Trigger Warning: Abuse and Anorexia started: 5-11-20 finished: 7-7-20 highest: #1 in Lashton 🥳 #5 in Malum 🥳 #2 in 5sos 🥳 #1 in hemwin 🥳 #1 in 5sauce 🥳

“Shh sweetheart, no talking: you know the rules.” 1. No talking 2. No lights 3. No kissing 4. No face-to-face 5. No names Yeah I know the rules. No this, no that. No love.

Luke Hemmings was in love with Ashton Irwin. But there are a few problems. One, Ashton was 17 and a senior and Luke was 15 and a sophomore. Two, Luke's best friend Calum is Ashton's younger brother, and Luke's older brother Michael is Ashton's best friend. Finally, Luke is very feminine and Ashton is exactly the opposite. Luke wants to try out for cheerleading, and Ashton's captain of the soccer team. They couldn't be more different. Luke and Ashton hardly every speak but when Ashton saves Luke how will things change? Will Luke always be just something about a brother and best friend to Ashton? Or will things progress and their entire relationship change.

Ich rettete ihm sein Leben, doch er sagte nicht einmal 'danke'. 2014 ©malumsbitxh