✖ 4th Place in the Monthly Elimination Awards; August 2017 ✖ Highest rank: #38 in Teen Fiction ✖ Highest rank: #1 in coming-out For Pelham Nixon, self-discovery isn't only about coming to terms with his sexual orientation. Driven by fear of facing reality, he has developed issues at acknowledging his feelings, as he is far too deep in his own realm. Reality just has to come and greet him once he decides to step out of his comfort-yet-confining zone, tired of self-condemnation. The universe is simply too vast as it is large, too many secrets behind too many stories. What does he know about his parents, his geek of a best friend, his charismatic girlfriend, or an attractive Hispanic boy whose presence he has just taken notice of? What he knows is that there are still far too many things for him to discover; himself, as well as the people around him. Though, that doesn't mean he has to discover them all by himself ... Copyright © A. Zah 2016

Haphephobia: the fear of being touched. Blake, a second-year Psychology student, hadn't ever heard of such a phobia, until the day he was hired as a guide for Dean, the heir of a rich family. Even though Dean had the appearance and behaviour of a gentleman, he harboured an extremely dark and painful past that left him traumatized. After a rainy night on an empty road, a string of coincidences brings the two together. Blake makes it his goal to help Dean free himself from his past and bring back the happiness he deserves while Dean can't help but be won over by the charismatic guy, who is the only one not to see him as damaged or pitiful. However, when memories are revealed, and the feeling of friendship starts turning into something else, things complicate. Is it possible to let go of your past, to fight for an unlikely future?

in which a boy has thirty days to convince his crush to not commit suicide. tw! mentions of suicide, self-harm & depression. [COMPLETE] lowercase intended. started: 04/08/2020 finished: 04/10/2020 milestones: #4 in lgbt - 5/26/20 #4 in lgbtq - 5/26/20