"I want to give you all the love you deserve." ___ Hadley Carter has struggled with her sexuality ever since childhood. She keeps her feelings hidden out of fear of judgement and not being accepted by others. It only takes one summer vacation for her secret to be revealed over one simple mishap. After spending her summer break halfway across the country, Hadley returns home vowing to keep her true identity hidden. That is, until Hadley meets Devon Parker. Devon opens up a door in Hadley's life that she had desperately been trying to keep closed. Despite her best efforts to shut Devon out, Hadley is unable to resist growing closer with her. Devon teaches Hadley what it means to be comfortable with who she is, to free herself from judgement, and how to fall in love. [COMPLETE] [SHORTLISTED FOR THE WATTYS 2021] [WATTPAD EDITORS' CHOICE LIST NOVEMBER 2021] [SHORTLISTED FOR THE WATTYS 2022] [WATTYS YOUNG ADULT WINNER 2022]

Toby Wentworth's life is a clusterfuck. For a lot of reasons. And one of them just happens to be the fact that he is very gay, and also so far in the closet that he's practically in Narnia. But then there's this guy. This guy in his calculus class who winks at him. And suddenly, they're partners for a project. And Toby cannot stop thinking about him. Toby does his best to balance school, work, relationships, and the biggest secret he's ever kept as life goes on. He does, honestly. He tries so very hard. But things like drama, bizarre coincidences, and, of course, his crippling tendency to overthink have been making it difficult, and it's really not fair. But Toby just cannot stop thinking about that boy. And there are times when he wants to hate himself because of it. Sometimes, Toby's life sucks. He'll admit it. But as aggravating as the feeling of being just out of reach of a romance he desperately craves is, there's something... thrilling about it. Something that, no matter how many times he tries, cannot get him to stop this madness. He's in trouble. Absolutely. But maybe trouble can have its benefits. *** cover art by me! Final chapter upload: 5/7/21 Word count: ~65k