They keep telling me that I should just let her go, let that night rest and move on with my life. They don't realise that I still wake up in the middle of the night, sobbing for Chance and sobbing for myself and sobbing for the fucked-up world with all the fucked-up people that we're supposed to live with and live through. They don't realise that I will never be able to let Chance go. ꧁꧂ One night is all it took for Rory Brewer's life to be changed forever. The most important person in Rory's life has disappeared, and now he doesn't know how to find his way without her -- or how to find her either, for that matter. Rory and Chance Harn have been best friends since they were kids, always spending time together and relying on one another. Their friendship became all-consuming for Rory, not only because he loved her, but also because she understood him like no one else ever could. But in a matter of months, Chance's home life falls apart, and the worst case scenario unfolds before Rory can even realise what's gone wrong. The reasons pile up, and Rory feels it's down to him to piece it all together. Rory's friendship with Max Bellamy grows and blossoms into something more, and he finds an ally in Lilia Engel. Yet nothing seems to match his love for Chance. He ends up torn between finding himself and the truth about that night. With the help of Max and Lilia, can he figure it all out? Or is he left to struggle in the darkness without Chance? ꧁FOR FANS OF: Looking for Alaska, 13 Reasons Why, and All the Bright Places꧂ ☆ 𝐅𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐝 @𝐒𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬𝐔𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐝 ☆ Contains some mature content (warning in author's note) Status: [[Complete -- Edited]] Written from: Jan -> Sept 2022 Word count: [[72,500]]

2nd Place Winner of the Poetry Category in The Fairytale Awards🥈 3rd Place Winner of the Poetry genre in The Carnival Awards🥉 𝐏𝐨𝐞𝐭𝐫𝐲 𝐢𝐬 𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐩𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞. 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐲 𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐞 𝐚𝐜𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐚𝐫𝐭. - 𝐓𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬 𝐇𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐲. These poems were written in my early teenage years. Fast forward to the present where I'm 22 and finally sharing them with somebody. 𝙵𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢'𝚛𝚎 𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚎𝚍 '𝙵𝚕𝚎𝚎𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝙼𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚜'. 𝑪𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒃𝒚 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓𝒇𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒄 @TheEnigmaticJesse