Promiscuity is addictive. It's so safe. You are not at risk of getting hurt, physically maybe , But emotionally ? No And the emotional pain is by far the worst. I know this because I've experienced both. Physical pain, from my alcoholic father, sexual abuse from his friends. It hurt, it really did. I have scars to show. But let me tell you, the worst type of hurt is the emotional pain. That pain you get when after years of building a wall around yourself, you FINALLY let someone in. You let that one special person in. You bring down your walls. You give your heart. You let him hold your heart in his palms even though you know the risks. You have so many dreams and fantasies about being with this person forever. And he leads you on. It feels good But then he turns around and crushes your heart. He squeezes the life out of it and you feel pain that you never thought was humanly possible. You feel so much pain you can't breathe. And then , you become cold. You stop feeling. You have no heart anymore. You become heartless, promiscuous, bad, really bad. Yes , that happened to me. Ben did that to me. It hurt. It hurt too much. But now I'm safe . Because I'm the bad girl. The one who doesn't have a heart left to be broken.

Ellie Jenkins is struggling to write a high school TV show, so her boss gives her an ultimatum: go to her ten year reunion or lose her big break forever.. ***** Ellie Jenkins definitely didn't peak in high school. She was an outsider, an invisible girl with a desperate crush on Mark Wright, a guy who hardly knew her name. But ten years later, she's living in Los Angeles, trying to write a hit show about cool high school kids, when an invitation for her high school reunion arrives. She doesn't want to go, but her writing has been suffering and her boss makes her an ultimatum: go to this reunion or lose her big break forever. Her boss even gives her a list of challenges to complete! Ellie takes the bait and returns to the school determined to find friends, fun and to prove to Mark Wright, once and for all, that Ellie is cool now. [[2018 WATTY AWARD WINNER: THE HIDDEN GEMS!!!!!!!]] [[A TOP WATTPAD PICK: FEATURED IN MILLENNIALS & MAYHEM]] [[word count: 70,000-80,000 words]]

Intro I needed to forget, I needed to feel wanted, at least just for that night and I did. He was young and handsome with muscles so defined his massive biceps bulged from the seams of his shirt. It was a night of pure pleasure with no names exchanged while I held nothing back letting myself enjoy him as he handled me roughly with skill. When morning came I left without a trace thinking I would never see him again but to my surprise I couldn't have been more wrong. ..... "Mom this is my friend Jayce," Tyler my son announced entering through the front door. I turned a pale sheet of white when I saw who came walking up behind him. Oh god what did I do?! I looked down at the floor waiting to see it crack because I was sure any second it was going to break open and suck me down to hell for what I had just done. Heartbroken looking for a way to escape, Mia has a one night stand with a stranger to take away the pain if only temporarily but what happens when that one night stand (and the best sex of her life) ends up being her son's new best friend? A/N The characters in this story are all adults over the age of 20. This is not some Mrs. Robinson type of story where an older woman seduces a teenager. FYI : This is my first finished story and not one of my greatest. I just republished it and it has a lot of old notes from when it was first published so please ignore those.