I miss you. I'm sorry for how damn stupid I was. If I ever see you again... please, don't even think of forgiving me. ... I know I'm just being delusional again. The dead can't hear me. But in my head, they keep talking. I'm drowning in emotions I shouldn't still have. And there was never anyone to pull me back out. A lot of times, I start to forget your voice. Your face. Your smile. But every time something reminds me of you, I hate myself all over again. Like when I met her. I told myself that falling for her would be betrayal. That I didn't deserve to feel anything again. But how could it be betrayal... If she is you? Have you been alive all along? Or is it my memory betraying me again? All this-...it's becoming too much for me to bear. There was no point in fighting for Khaenri'ah any longer-not after what l'd done. No one would've noticed if I was gone. I should've pulled the blade to my throat before it was too late. But when I finally do- Before I go to hell, would you just... ...would you just, please-please be there. I'm not going to ask you to come with me. I won't rant on about how much I love you. I just want to feel your warmth again. ...And your warmth is all I need. ❀Start: Jan 16, 2025 ❀This book is not yet completed, but feel free to read it after reading the A/N. ٩( ᐛ )و