[this was written when I was a young teen. I'm sorry] Just a Buckin fanfic. Also, my first story. It does have a happy ending. After a devastating fight on Christmas Eve, Chris left London and took refuge in his New York flat. He thought that this Christmas was gonna be his loneliest, that he wouldn't have anybody with him to share his thoughts and feelings. He thought that he deserved to die. He was wrong. Through a series of almost impossible incidents, he rediscovers forgotten memories and their significance in shaping his life, with the help of a mysterious green eyed lady. Thousands of thoughts cloud his mind, and hundreds of feelings sweep over him. The pain becomes unbearable. But every cloud has a silver lining. Everyone has a reason to live. Will Chris find his reason? Read on... (TW: Mentions of suicide, drug and alcohol usage, hallucinations, fighting and physical harm)

-starts AU at the end of the AROBTTH era- ☆ Jonny falls too hard for someone he doesn't expect to ever love him back. But that's just where truth and fiction meet. Chris absolutely knows of one thing that is his truth, while Jonny thinks one thing that is his fiction. ☆ "You can think about it all you want. But your thoughts will never compare to the truth, Jon. And that's that I love you more than anything else in this fucking world. You got that?" ☆ • contains strong language • buckin af

Jonny Buckland and his family had always thought of him as a mature, responsible young bloke, capable of making good decisions. He was going to University to study astronomy, and he had always been a logical thinker, always thinking before making a decision or acting. These expectations are the foundation of the shock following, when Jonny tells his family about the mistake he's made and how his life will never be the same.