how does that coldplay song go? for you id bleed myself dry? yeah, something like that. or theres a part in the beginning that say look at the stars, look at how they shine for you, and everything you do, yeah, they were all yellow? well, when i went to that rooftop that night, i went to watch the stars. at least thats what i told myself, i didnt actually have a reason for my wandering but i definitely didnt mean to go there to meet my yellow, but i did. i met my yellow that night. but apparently he didnt. -or- "ill teach you how to live," he stated simply as our eyes met once more. "how to really live." -word count- 95k- #1- 5sosfiction (1.31.21) #2- 5sos (2.10.21)

| Youngblood (noun) | A person who lives freely with constant adrenaline pumping through their veins to disguise the pain hiding behind their eyes -- Anastasia Hemmings has always lived in the shadows, covering her pain in fake smiles, false confidence, and drowning her sorrows in alcohol. Ashton Irwin lived in the limelight, masking his misery in hat tricks, shit-eating grins, and partying til he can't see straight. A girl who doesn't believe in love because everyone who has ever loved her hurts her, and a boy afraid to love because all he does is hurt the ones he loves- a recipe for disaster; a twisted fairytale he orchestrated. -- In which they shift from "I'm going to make your life a living hell if you stay on this team." "You've been doing that since the day I met you." to "I hate how much I love you." "The whole world could be collapsing around me and I'd only care that you're okay." ---- "I had someone tell me once that living like a youngblood hurts too, and I didn't believe them until you broke me." -- 06/02/21- #3 in #5secondsofsummer 10/25/21- #1 in #ashtonirwin 12/23/21- #1 in #irwin

"let me increase your dopamine. give me from dusk until dawn to show you what living's like." in which an apartment blackout brings a boy who's done everything, and a girl who's done nothing, together. short story ©️@-lukeniall 2020

"Calum, why is everyone in this town so afraid of you?" [this isn't scary i promise]

"Promise me you'll be fine?" She said as the two of held onto each other's hands for dear life. "I'll be just fine." I said kissing her hand and reassured her through my tears.