❝ This is the closest I'll ever get to flying. ❞ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ No one can fully understand the truth ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ behind a girls suicide, unless the girl ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ who jumped actually tells you the full ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ story. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ But that's impossible because she's ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ dead. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ But what if she could tell you why she ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ killed herself? Would you be willing to ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ listen? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Well, I'm Amber Fields. And this is why I ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ jumped. This story describes the ten days before Amber committed suicide. Do not read if you are triggered by suicide or cutting. This story contains a small amount of romance. This is not meant to romanticize suicide in any way. Edited✔️

Jasper's voice was like waiting for rain during a drought. You got excited when the clouds went grey, hoping the sky would open and quench your thirst. Even a cool breeze felt like a tease. Every time Jasper opened his mouth it was the same one single drop from a leaking faucet. Yet it was never enough. He was mine. My dear deaf boy. I know you see me. I know you can see me call for your attention. I know you can feel my heart pound and my hands shake when I come near. You don't have to be able to hear to understand these three words. I love you. Do you hear me now?

„Du gegen mich.", schlug Jayden vor. „Was kriegt der Gewinner?" „ Wenn ich gewinne, einen Kuss von deiner Schwester. Wenn du gewinnst, meine Maschine." Ich starrte meinen Bruder fassungslos an. „ Adam,-..." Er unterbrach mich. „Geht klar." Was? „Adam, bist du vollkommen bescheuert? Du kannst doch nicht einfach-..." „Keine Angst, Maddy, ich habe noch nie verloren." Mein Bruder küsste mich auf die Stirn und zog seinen Helm an. Jayden zwinkerte mir zu und zog ebenfalls seinen Helm an. Die beiden Jungs setzten sich auf ihre Motorräder und erweckten diese zum Leben. Das Startsignal ertönte. Jayden und Adam fuhren los. Und ich, tja, ich blickte den beiden hinterher und hoffte, dass Adam dieses verdammte Rennen gewinnt.