"love can't save me." ⚠️ TW for suicide and mental illness - unfinished & no plans to return -

"woah hansen, breathe." evan struggled for air, attempting to focus only on what the boy knelt in front of him was saying. he let out a strangled sob and his eyes clouded with tears, he could no longer see connor but he could feel the boys grip wrapped around his forearms. he channelled all his thoughts to that contact between him and connor, and began to find a steady breathing pattern to follow. deep breath in, 1-2-3-4, and out, 1-2-3-4. 'don't pass out, evan, don't pass out', he told himself. in, 1-2-3-4, out, 1-2-3-4. and before long, he was back, connor searching his eyes for some kind of sign that the attack was over, his face etched with concern. "that's it, just breathe." - lowercase intended. read the first chapter for triggers and other notes💗

Highest rankings- #251 in Fanfiction (6/14/17) #276 in Fanfiction (7/5/17) #291 in Fanfiction (8/27/17) Finished on 8/27/17 Connor Murphy's family never takes him seriously. Not even when he tells them that he is gay. On the first day of school, he takes out his anger on his crush, Evan, and decides to carry out his plan of suicide. Evan Hansen is in love with Zoe Murphy, a girl that will never reciprocate his feelings. It's just his luck, that he catches Connor and stops him from taking his own life. Can Evan convince Connor he has something to live for? Will they both be found? WARNINGS: SUICIDE, DEPRESSION, DARK STUFF, AND A LOT OF GAY (No profanity or smut)