Ivan lost his stage. Till lost his. At the end of round six, Ivan is rescued - but with no way to get Till out, and no way to tell if he's even alive. Except breaking into the old garden of Anakt. Creds to my friend for the title WHY HAS THIS GOT SO MANY READS ITS SO BAD WTH

⚠️ Author's Warning: This story is not particularly good-it is extremely repetitive, circles around the same topics, and can get frustrating very quickly. The writing often feels useless, annoying, and dragged out. If you don't have patience for flawed pacing and unnecessary repetition, I honestly don't recommend reading further. Proceed only if you're willing to endure it.

Ivan and Till have been best friends since childhood - inseparable, loyal, and seemingly unbreakable. But when they enter college together, the cracks in their bond begin to show. Ivan has harbored a deep, unspoken crush on Till for years, a quiet obsession that only intensifies as they grow older. Till, on the other hand, has these unfamiliar feeling. He doesn't even know what he feels anymore. While Ivan clings to their shared history and the illusion of something more, Till remains blissfully unaware or willfully ignorant, using Ivan's devotion as emotional support without realizing (or admitting) the damage it causes. Their friendship slowly turns toxic: full of emotional manipulation, guilt, dependency, and unbalanced love. Ivan can't let go, and Till can't give what Ivan needs. Eventually, the truth spills out - Ivan confesses. What follows is silence, distance, and a heartbreaking experience. Will they find love for one another? COVER ART CREDIT: @lucidkana on X ChatGPT helped as well with details and correct terms, but overall. The story is my original idea. Did some fixes and shaped it into the story I wanted. Thank you for putting in the time to read.

This is a definitely not canon Shin Soukoku story. This is mostly a cute (No smut) fanfic. They for the majority have the same backstory as the anime, although I have changed a little bit. For example, Atsushi was treated worse, and Dazai found Akutagawa when Akutagawa was 16. (BSD)