"Why do you like the rain so much?" "It reminds me that I'm still alive." (Luke Hemmings Fanfiction) Copyright to Ashley Royer. All things written by Ashley Royer unless otherwise stated. Not affiliated with 5 Seconds of Summer or any other characters mentioned. THIS IS NOT THE FULL BOOK. The full book is published with changed names and can be bought wherever books are sold. AVAILABLE NOW WHEREVER BOOKS ARE SOLD. The published version has added chapters and everything has been edited.

Ashton is okay right now. He's always like this after a bad bout. He starts off saying that the world is his oyster and he loves everyone, but when the energy and fresh success fades, so does he. Luke knows. He knows about all of Ashton's problems. He knows about the time Ashton was bullied nearly to the brink, the family deaths and friend losses, and the ups and downs, the latter of which seem to be more common lately. It's been so easy lately for Ashton to slip after a joke gone wrong, or a jab on Twitter. Ashton always says he's sorry, repeating it again and again if only to convince himself. Luke knows he's sorry, knows that he can't help it. And he'll sit by the bathtub for hours, holding Ashton, to make sure that he knows someone loves him. None of the other boys know. Ashton couldn't bring himself to tell them and face their disapproving stares too, and he wouldn't let Luke tell them, so he's stuck in this half state of secrecy and confession to Luke. Ashton hasn't gone too far yet, not far enough that Luke can't patch him up with gauze, antibiotics, and a long hug. But someday, someday, Luke knows Ashton won't be able to take it anymore, and Ashton will die. And Luke will be all alone.

"Alex Perez, he's pleasured almost every woman in the world. And I'm gonna make sure i'm the last."

Being told that you have to tutor your bully never really sounds good. When Caitlyn is told she has to tutor the person who has bullied her for years, how will they both react? Is he going to open up to her, or carry on pushing her out? Will she forgive him for the constant pain he's put her in through the years? Bullied by Luke Hemmings.

Life gets better? Try telling that to Ashton Irwin, who's life has only been shit. He doesn't believe in anything or himself anymore, and he's nearing his breaking point. Luke Hemmings is the new kid, and he immediately becomes well known; due to his charming looks and personality. But when he sees the hazel eyed boy sitting alone at lunch, he finds himself making it his goal to make Ashton happy again. Will he fix him before it's too late? Or will Ashton slip right through his fingertips? WARNING: foul language, self harm, suicidal actions/thoughts, and eating disorders.

Ashton loves Luke. Luke loves Ashton. But Ashton is the "bad boy" and Luke is the "nerd" Will they ever find love? Read to find out...

There was something about Luke, that made Ashton smile. But lately, Luke hasn't been smiling back. Luke is deeply in love with Ashton, and it's slowly killing him. He's convinced that Ashton will never love him back. He starts to drift away from the other boys, shutting himself out from them while occasionally letting Calum in. Luke is tired of being alone and tired of feeling broken.