You never think the last time is the last. The last time to hug someone to tell them you love them, you never think it's actually the last. You think you have forever but you don't. Maya Ayad had to learn that lesson the hard way. As she powers through her life, she can't help but feel dead inside, or to be honest actually dead. Maya has the golden ticket opportunity that wasn't given to many of her friends : learn to navigate without the people that cared for you the most. She could tell you it wasn't fun.

Life isn't fairies and unicorns and princes coming to save you. It hurts all around. The people you thought you could trust turn out to be the people you wish you had never met. People die; the good guy usually dies or loses. Tala Zaman is tried of being the only one who acknowledges the sad facts of the world. She gets called a bitch and pessimistic and just plain old morbid when she does. So Tala starts her journey into acceptance and healing after life has fucked her over for the millionth time. She tries to "heal" or the closest equivalent to healing. The people she meets change her for the rest of her life, and the people she had her entire life will be seen in a new light. But not all change is good. --------- TW/// -mentions and flashbacks of sa -mention of rape -mention of death -blood -trauma -cutting -depression (i will add before every chapter just in case i forgot something here.)