people always say you have to choose. no one tells you what happens after. i thought losing her would teach me how to let go. instead, it taught me how to pretend. then i met him, and for the first time in a long time, i believed i was finally moving forward. until she came back. this isn't a story about choosing between two people. it's about living with the choices i already made-and discovering that sometimes the hardest person to forgive is yourself. in the end, i wasn't hers. i wasn't his. i was just the girl who got stuck in the middle.

On the eve of a person's 21st birthday, they have a Dream. In their Dream, they see their Soulmate. Cammie, who has been with her boyfriend for the last four years, is confident that she will Dream of him. But on the eve of her 21st birthday, her entire world is turned upside down she not only doesn't see Her boyfriend, but doesn't see a man at all. Instead, Cammie Dreams of the most beautiful girl she has ever seen. But there's only one problem: her Soulmate can't be a girl; she's not gay. That will ruin everything.

Effy works nights at a shitty bar in a shitty part of LA, lives in an even shittier apartment with a leaky ceiling and a stray cat that refuses to leave. She's all rough edges and way too used to life handing her the short end of the stick. Nothing ever comes easy, and if it does, it probably wants something in return. Then this girl walks in. Easy laugh. Soft eyes. Looks like sin in a bandana and moves like the world's hers for the taking.

Was hoping you'd come home. I don't care if it's a lie. - This is the sequel to Hit Me Hard.

i work in a bookstore. nothing exciting ever happens. then one day i found a letter. just one. no name, no explanation. it said, "i've been watching you, for some time." i didn't overthink it. i left it where it was. but then there was another. and another. each one made me feel seen in a way no one else ever had. i didn't know who was leaving them. and i didn't know if i wanted to. (lowercase intended)

Yohan spent years searching for the kind of love people write poems about - the kind that stays, the kind that feels like home. Through heartbreaks, failed confessions, and late-night breakdowns, one person never left her side: her best friend. Always there to comfort her. Always there to help her chase someone else. But while Yohan was busy looking for the love of her life, she failed to notice the truth hiding in plain sight. Some feelings are deeper than friendship... and some betrayals hurt more because they come from the people you trust the most. In a story filled with love, secrets, jealousy, and heartbreak, Yohan discovers that not every happy ending comes without pain. Because sometimes, the person helping you find love... is the same person who destroys you.

"She forgot me, and the world remembered her. Now, she's back-to play the role of the girl she left behind."

she left to forget. now she's back-and so is everything she tried to bury. charlie was never supposed to come home. not after the falling out with her childhood best friend, not after the accident that left her physically and emotionally scarred, and definitely not after she lost herself somewhere along the way. but when life leaves her no choice, she returns to the one place that holds both her fondest memories...and her deepest heartbreak. back in the town she called home once upon a time, charlie has to face the ghosts of her past: therapy sessions she doesn't want, a future she's unsure of, and billie eilish-the girl she once called her best friend, and maybe something more. time has changed them. secrets still linger. and feelings? they never really went away. is it too late for second chances? or is this the moment charlie finally lets herself be loved the way she'd always dreamed?

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