"There is nothing to writing, all you do is sit at a typewriter and bleed."

random poems about random things from a random girl. x (currently editing)

I'm Heather Parks. I'm the weakest soul there ever was. I gave up. I lost hope. I killed myself... But every day since I killed myself, I've tried to Un-kill myself. Every day since I killed myself, I've asked myself: Why? Every day since I killed myself, I die once again because of what I've done. Every day since I killed myself, I think of what I've lost. Every day since I killed myself, I wish I hadn't done it... And compared to the pain I'm feeling right now, the pains I felt during my life were nothing. Nothing at all... PRAISE FOR 'SUICIDE': "The agony is so surreal, it broadens your horizons to feel deeper. The pain is alluring." - Mahwish.A.Aleem  "Reluctant to relinquish my love for such a story , i request all of the readers to cherish it and not treat it lightly" - Maheen Irfan "The intensity of the author's emotions has a certain depth which makes the reader reflect on the different aspects of their life." - Maheen Amir

Dark stories about life. Just read if you want to. Not recommended if you don't like the following things: demons, voices, cutting, suicide, psychotic stuff, dead etc. ✨Also please don't think this is who I am, I'm a writer and experience things, but not all of this✨ 🌸names won't be included🌸 ❄️slow updates❄️

Being a girl is tough, but instead of crying at our pain, let's laugh at it.

In life, there are triumphs together with pain and sufferings. I've acknowledged that fact because of the scars, you've left, inside me. They are the proof of my existence and persistence after years of struggling, just to to be the person, I am, today. ~lia HIGHEST RANKING: #45 in Poetry [20180624] #34 in Poetry [20191010] #21 in Poetry [20220606] #1 in Poetry [20220710]

Couldn't fit them all into 1, so it'll be a couple books long. Starts at number 200 because that's when the first book ended. Extreme trigger warning.

a variety of losses, regrets, and depression wrapped into a mess of a poem book started: 04.29.15 completed: 06.24.19 a book that has existed almost as long as I have on here. thank you for giving my story a chance (my apologies if some are really cringe or triggering)

the gentle words she left behind

[SUDAH TERBIT DAN TERSEDIA DI GRAMEDIA] [GENORAZORS SERIES 2] Aralya Rylie Millano, hidupnya tidak seindah senyumannya yang selalu ia perlihatkan pada dunia. Ia terlahir karena hubungan satu malam. Selain keluarga besarnya, ayahnya, semua orang juga tidak menginginkan dirinya ada di dunia ini. Semua menginginkan dirinya untuk, mati. Jika semua ini tentang rasa lelah, mungkin ia sudah menyerah sejak dulu. Namun ini semua tentang mencari harapan untuk bertahan. Rafajar Zeroun Agler, adalah satu - satunya harapan yang justru mencundanginya, dan menegaskan bahwa selama ini hidupnya hanyalah sebuah lelucon. Yang tega menghancurkan hidupnya yang sudah lebih dulu hancur lebur. Yang lebih mengejutkan, jika Rafajar selama ini menyembunyikan kenyataan jika dirinya mengalami penyimpangan seksual dan mengorbankan perasaan Aralya untuk sembuh yang hanya membutuhkan cintanya untuk bertahan. Seumur hidup Rafajar tidak pernah tertarik dengan perempuan manapun. Apakah ia bisa normal dan mencintai Aralya dengan sepenuh hatinya? ••• Kita adalah kisah yang tidak akan pernah diketahui akhirnya, supaya tidak ada alasan untuk mengakhiri kisah ini -STIGMA, Rafajar. Tapi waktu bisa mengakhiri yang berawal atau bahkan mengakhiri yang tidak pernah diawali sama sekali, dan tidak peduli kita setuju atau tidak -STIGMA, Aralya [Harsh word, bullying, violance, selft harm, mental ilness, suciede, etc] Highest Rank : #1 In Violance # 1 In Break # 1 In Toxic # 1 In Sad # 1 In Happy # 1 In putih abu - abu # 1 In Teenlit Start : 8 Juli 2021 End : 19 Maret 2022