I had a bucketlist. It was really a small notebook, filled with 101 things I wanted to do before I died. Some of the things were easy - have a waterfight, attend over 50 concerts. Others were bigger, like go skydiving, visit over 50 countries, get a degree. The list didn't include anything about falling for a punk rock band member.

New Country. New School. New Friends. New Life. New Beginning. Fresh Start. Clean Slate. Start Over. Have you ever wanted to move away and start all over again? That’s all Vanessa has ever wanted. She wants to move away from the life she has grown to hate and start her life all over again. Bullies. Abuse. Depression. Self-Hatred. Weak. Useless. Pathetic. Lost. Feeling unwanted and under-appreciated aren’t new feelings for young Vanessa Bell, living in constant fear and worry isn’t either. It can take just a few words to bring someone’s self-esteem plummeting for the ground and add a few bruises here and there and all self-worth will be lost. Feeling numb from all the pain is usually a good thing but when you’ve been hurt so much to the point where you don’t feel anything anymore. You’ll often find yourself asking “What is the point?” or “Why do I even bother?” Maybe Vanessa will find her way, maybe in a place called Sydney, maybe with the help of a boy named Luke. When Vanessa chooses to “Start All Over” maybe she’ll find it’s the best decision she’s ever made. {Warning: Will contain triggering thoughts and action and involves sensitive topics like depression, death, suicide and abuse} **This is very poorly written because when I wrote it I was 13 so please read knowing that I was a very dumb 13 year-old or read later when I've finished rewriting which is a slow process but I'm getting there, sorry** UNDERGOING EDITING COPYRIGHT © 2012-2013 CUDDLINGHEMMINGS

"What do you want from me?" Lilly asked "I don't need your pity" "I just want to know you're okay" Luke mumbled "Why do you even care?" "Because you're all I have"

"Zayn..." The little girl whispers and the little boy turns to her and looks at her stomach in shock, "Katie..." Her hands clasped her stomach, the red luquid oozes through her finger and onto her dress. Her face was pale, and getting paler by the second "It hurts Zayn..." She whispers and he sees a tear escape. "Ok... I'm going to go and get help, I'm going back to get mum and dad please Kat, please just be ok!" The little boy makes a quick descision and before he could change his mind he was running. Running through the forest into the paddock. He ran as fast as he could, despite his panting breathing. All he could think of was Katie. She was in pain. He contuines to run, climbing the fence the seperated her house from the paddock and sprant up to the back door. He knocked frantically on the door.

There is new love, new hope, and new adventures to be shared. Ella is back at college to finish her second year with Luke with no fear in any trace of her DNA. She’s still young but taking on the world with her wide eyes. Things are different back in Doncaster. As a new love awakens, another begins to crumble. Meg and Louis aren’t seeing eye to eye anymore, but there’s one small gift that’s keeping them together. It’s their glimmer of hope and they just can’t seem to let it go. And it’s a good thing. Because a little bit of hope never hurt anyone.

"I love you, Ashton" I whispered to his sleeping face, being careful so he doesn't hear. Quickly kissing him on the cheek, I run away knowing that he can't know, and he will never know. I'm in love with my bestfriend. "Diana?" Ashton's voice stops me. Tears threaten to fall down, but I push them away. "Yes?" "Could you please call Mel?" He replies. I nod and walk away.

What happens when a small town girl decides to go out for the night to drink her pain away? One night that changes her life. And one that he's begging her not to go.