*+*+Warning: Contains triggering, abuse, strong language*+*+ Risina Krane has had enough of everything. Enough of school, her unattentive parents and her abusive boyfriend. One morning, she takes her life and her bestfriend- Frank Iero- is not there to stop her. In order to find out why she did it, he reads her diary. Frank finds answers he never suspected because Risina never told him.

"Gerard, what's going on? Gerard, please. Gerard, I need you. Gerard, stop this. I can't do this without you. What's happening? Please. Just listen to me." -------------------------------------------------------------------------- [Warning: may be triggering for some individuals]

(prequel to the "I tried...and failed" one shot) Gerard is in the army and Frank is his husband. Sometimes, they go half a year or more without seeing each other. It's not something they can't handle, but sometimes it gets to be too much. There's always the possibility that Gerard may not come back home and Frank hates it.