Sapnap grew up in Texas, a state where being gay just wasn't something you were allowed to talk about- so he didn't. He never came out to his family and even when he made new friends who loved him unconditionally, he still couldn't bring himself to come out. Staying in the closet never felt like a problem once he moved to Florida with Dream, well, until a video collaboration introduced him to a boy that made him question if he could keep hiding. Now, Sapnap has to return to Texas for the first time since his move to Florida for his step-sister's birthday. What's waiting for him when he arrives is going to make keeping his sexuality a secret from his family that much harder.

Karl is finding it more and more difficult to hide his feelings for his best friend, Sapnap. He's willing to risk it all for his chance at love, but does he really understanding just how much he's risking?

༄ how long can a spark last, before it burns out? its the year 1984- and g has just started boarding school in america. he makes friends easily enough, but there's one boy who he just can't seem to get along with. once the two of them manage to overcome their differences, their friendship progresses into something george never knew he wanted, something he never thought he would find. something his father would never approve of. as the school year drags on and they're left to try and tackle all of the problems thrown at them, their bond then ends up becoming stronger than ever. but at what cost? ༄

(This story has been entered into the Watty awards :D) After not being approved to move to the states, George takes a small two week vacation in the summer to visit his friends. His friends drag him to a party where a reckless decision was made. Two years later George is alone in his apartment with nothing but the sound of the heater and his sleeping two year old on his chest. He hasn't spoken to his friends since he left the states all those years ago, terrified of what they might say. What they might think. George knows the text will come, its his decision on what to do about it he needs to think through. Happy 25th birthday to himself, he thinks.

༄ Dream is the lead guitarist in a band, George is just a boy who happens to be the one Dream falls for. Little does George know this isn't the first time he's ever encountered the man he will slowly come to love. - tws/cws at the start of each chapter !! :) ALL RIGHTS RESERVED please ask for permission before attempting to repost/ use/ make new works/ with any content from this book. please contact me to discuss further through tiktok - @amymayfarrell_ instagram - @amymayfarrell

Why wasn't anyone noticing? Was it not obvious he was sad? How come nobody had realised when George only wore long sleeves? What would it take for them to see he needed help? He wanted help. He needed help. How could he get it without asking - because asking was scary and he would do anything besides ask. Even if it tore him apart. Then someone realised. #1 ❣️georgenotfound - 28/10/21 #1 ❣️eatingdisorder - 28/09/21 #1 ❣️ selfharmawareness - 09/10/21 #1 ❣️angst - 15/10/21 #2 ❣️dnf - 29/10/21 #3 ❣️karlnap - 07/10/21 #3 ❣️dreamnotfound - 17/10/21 #7 ❣️sapnap - 30/10/21 #7 ❣️dreamwastaken - 30/10/21 #9 ❣️dreamnotfound - 15/10/21 #10❣️georgenotfound - 25/10/21 #13❣️dream - 28/10/21 -finished 08/10/21- - cover by li-wri (tumblr) or liwri_art (insta) -