❝ you're stuck in my head and i can't get you out of it, if i could do it all again, i know i'd go back to you ❞ where a sixteen year old boy realises he has feelings for his best friend. [basically the goldfinch but gayer]

Max has been feeling really odd around her best friend, El. She loves her more than she's ever loved anyone or anything, ever- as a friend, of course. These feelings are crushing Max to pieces, and she doesn't know what to do about it. *(Guys, they're not actually just going to be friends. They obviously like each other, they're gonna be soft lesbians, okay? Okay.) !!MAJOR S3 SPOILERS!! ALSO: HUUUGE TW ON THIS STORY. i'm mentally ill as hell i can't just write a happy story 😌 i've included tws before all of the chapters that i think need them, but if there's any chapter that you think should have another tw PLEASE let me know. (This Fanfiction takes place after season three, but Eleven and Will still live in Hawkins. Hopper is still dead, as is Billy. Eleven lives with Will and Joyce. The Party still hangs out; they are as close as ever.) (There is also gonna be some Byler, but not whole chapters or anything like that)

☆.｡.:*(book two, 𝑹𝒆𝒍𝒂𝒑𝒔𝒆, is now out- inside this book ) ☆.｡.:*In which Will has a problem. A big one. A problem he needs urgent help with, a problem he can't really tell anyone. He can't seem to control it anymore, and it's only getting worse- can Mike find out and help him before it's too late? ☆.｡.:* contains mature subjects. ☆.｡.:* ©itsjustbyler 2019, 2020 𝒉𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔: #1 in 𝑩𝒚𝒍𝒆𝒓 9/26/19, 10/9/19, 10/25/19, 11/1/19 # 4 in 𝑩𝒚𝒍𝒆𝒓 9/28/19, 11/17/19 # 3 in 𝑩𝒚𝒍𝒆𝒓 10/1/19, 10/30/19 # 2 in 𝑩𝒚𝒍𝒆𝒓 10/4/19, 10/19/19, 10/29/19, 11/3/19 #20 in 𝒂𝒅𝒅𝒊𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 8/10/20 #11 in 𝒂𝒅𝒅𝒊𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 8/12/20