TRIGGER WARNING; this story contains heavy themes of eating disorders and depression, if these topics trigger you or make you uncomfortable please refrain from reading this story. i don't want to make anyone uncomfortable. IF YOU OR ANYONE YOU KNOW IS STRUGGLING, PLEASE SEEK HELP AND MY DMS ARE ALWAYS OPEN IF ANYONE NEEDS IT <3 ------------------------------- Nick finally gets a chance to visit his best friend Karl Jacobs but as the visit goes on he becomes concerned with the amount of weight he seems to be losing. Conflicting feels fight against each other as Nick tries to answer the question; how could someone so perfect, hate himself so much? ----------------------- in the process of rewriting as well ^^

Karl Jacobs. When most people think of him, they think the happy, funny man who brightens up their day. But, off camera, Karl is nowhere near as happy. He tortures himself just to make others happier, and dreads the day that Sapnap would arrive. But that day is here, and Karl's world becomes just a little bit brighter. TW// Self harm, eating disorders, suicidal thoughts (if you know me irl, stfu, do you don't)

Karl Jacobs is an innocent man who's grown up in the overworld, banned from going through the "portal to hell" as his parents called it. He never knew why it was so terrible, he'd only ever heard exaggerated stories from his parents. He longed to see someone or something from there, but his hope deteriorated over time. Sapnap is a demon in hiding. He was born in the underworld, known to him as the Nether. When he was eight he was saved by a wandering boy who found him interesting. He went by the name of Dream. Dream snuck him out of the horrid place he called home. While Sapnap missed it, he never dared to go back. ---

Dream, Sapnap's friend rents a whole large cruise ship for all of his friends. He lets everyone bring their own set of friends, his friends can invite their friends, and their friends can invite their friends. Kind of confusing. The whole Dream SMP is there. The first time they've all met up in person. Dream had invited Jimmy ( MrBeast ) Chandler and Chris. Jimmy invites Karl to join with them. Karl and Sapnap had never met before. ( you pretend Karl isn't in the smp. ) They build an odd connection. They dont understand this feeling. The cruise lasts a month. If relationships want to happen, they have to figure it out in a month, before they all fly out back to their own homes. READ MILESTONES!!! 100,000 reads - march 30 2021 200,000 reads - october 3rd 2021

karl works two jobs. he's a small streamer, and he works at a restaurant called 'glow.' he was never really fond of the job, he found it boring. but what happens when a popular youtuber and his friends show up at the restaurant, and karl seems to like this boy. but not in that way. vote and maybe follow? re-writing!

" its cold " -karl ------------------ "WHERE THE FUCK IS KARL"...... karls gone missing out of no where, no one knows where he is or how it happened; but they know he's gone ⚠️I DO NOT SHIP THE REAL PEOPLE JUST THEIR PERSONAS ⚠️ TW⚠️ : BLOOD HEAVY ANGST BAD THOUGHTS SUICIDE MENTIONS thank you hope you like it ❤❤❤

Karl is finding it more and more difficult to hide his feelings for his best friend, Sapnap. He's willing to risk it all for his chance at love, but does he really understanding just how much he's risking?

-Old name: Our Cliche Romance- [HIGHSCHOOL AU] We wrote our names on a tree to prove we wouldn't leave each other, we were friends however I like to think it meant more. I missed my chance, but now your happier, I can't stand to see you with him. You make me crazy, crazy for you, crazy for your love. I can treat you better, I could give you many reasons why you should be with me instead of any other guy, but if he makes you happier, then so be it. I loved to see you smile, but he makes you smile now, he gives you attention and affection I could only dream of giving to you. - Karl was born and raised in North Carolina, but after feeling alone for what feels like a year, a new face from Texas shows up; Sapnap. The two start hanging out creating a one sided crush, that's what they think, but now an old friend comes back to Karl causing conflict and jealousy to play out. Karl was never good with identifying feelings, good at reading emotions but not his own.

Karl is nerdy and mute, mostly due to insecurities, bullying, and his father's death. Nick is popular and talkative -- only because someone is always talking to the school's star basketball player. content warnings: bullying, agression, violence, fighting, blood, homophobia 10, 000 reads - Sept 30/21 20, 000 reads - Oct 22/21 30, 000 reads - Nov 02/21 40, 000 reads - Nov 20/21 50, 000 reads - Dec 16/21 60, 000 reads - Jan 09/22 70, 000 reads - Feb 13/22 80, 000 reads - Mar 26/22 90, 000 reads - May 16/22 100, 000 reads - Jul 21/22 110, 000 reads - Sept 17/22 120, 000 reads - Nov 12/22 130, 000 reads - Dec 29/22 140, 000 reads - Mar 06/23 150, 000 reads - Jul 25/23 160, 000 reads - Dec 10/23 Highest Rankings: #1 in BROMANCE - Oct 20/21 #1 in GAYGUYS - Oct 21/21 #3 in KARLNAP - Oct 20/21 #1 in SHIPNAME - Oct 23/21 #2 in SKEPHALO - Feb 21/22 #5 in SAPNAP - Feb 21/22 #1 in KARLJACOBS - Feb 22/22 #1 in SKEPHALO - Jun 14/22 #2 in KARLNAP - Oct 03/22 #10 in SCHOOL - Nov 17/22 #1 in KARLJACOBS - Nov 24/22 #2 in DREAMSMP - Nov 29/22 #1 in KARLNAP - Dec 08/22 #5 in GAYGUYS - Jul 7/23 #4 in DNF - Aug 14/23 #2 in GAYGUYS - Aug 19/23 #1 in KARLNAP - Nov 07/23

Karl slowly begins to develop feelings for his best friend, knowing he feels this way about someone so close to him makes his skin crawl. 【☆】★【☆】★【☆】★【☆】★【☆】 This is my first fan fiction, so if I make any mistakes i'm sorry. If TW are needed there will be one at the heading of the chapter, or where it says a certain thing. Started: December 21, 2020 (Published first chapter at a different time.) Ended: March 13th