Since he was just a little boy, big brother was always cold to him. But he loved his big brother because he was family. Even when the years past, big brother was always cold to him. He tried to love his big brother but couldn't take it. As the years pas even more, big brother was warm to him. He loved his big brother because he was family. I never understood nor realized it before, maybe it was me who was the cause of his insanity. Since he was little, big brother was always cold to him... Maybe it's all my fault...

" One day you'll walk the world and keep in mind The heart you've been given in winter time And through the bitter cold, with opened eyes You'll find the strength to fight and stand upright. " --- For three years he's been searching, mentally and physically drained, only feeling empty. The brother he lost was still alive, and he was reminded every day. It was just the matter of time.. soon. --- The song that inspired me to write this ( as well as the lyrics in this bio ) is " Born in winter " By Gojira, I do in no way own the song and all credit goes to them! ( I suggest checking them out! --- This story contains lots of mature language, gore, angst, and other stuff ( There will be mentions of suicide, self harm and rape! ) be cautious when reading!