"Nepenthe; something that can make you forget grief or suffering. Adam was just that to me; nepenthe. And that was all I needed. Adam and Hanna and everybody that cared for me the way I cared for them. Because in such a lonely world we all need love. We all need somebody; somebody to be our 'nepenthe'."

Life doesn't always go the way you panned. For Alexandra, that's the story of her life.

Lauren Cole is a 14 year old girl who after discovering the cause of her fathers death was suicide went into a phase of hurt and darkness. Lauren got bullied from the age of 10 and has been self harming and underage drinking since she was 11. After spending three months clean in hospital Lauren goes back to her old ways after a peculiar and haunting dream of herself drowning comes back. 4:32am. Don't Do It.

"I love you." "For real this time?" "For real. You are my everything."