namjoon loves to admire art from afar || lowercase intended || || incredibly short chapters ||

This story talks about eating disorders, suicide, and death. If these things trigger you, then I advise you to skip this story. (The plot kinda gets confusing and a little out of order but that's ok) "Fat" is all that the haters have been calling Namjoon on Twitter. "Fat monster" "fatty". Namjoon tries to forget it, but he can't. He can't deal with The pain. He can't deal with The fact that he has suicidal thoughts. And with all the nightmares he has been having he is really suffering. Yet the other members have no idea what's he's really going through. Started. March 2018 Ended. June. 2018 ⚠️ i started this story when i was 12/13 so it's kinda bad and the grammar is kinda ehhh so it's kinda bad and doesn't have much of a GOOD plot line so yea [COMPLETED]

"After that he turned off his phone, so it won't disturb him." - Namjoon "He started feeling uncomfortable, did something happen?" - Jin

Being the oldest of BTS isn't easy, after putting up with it for years Jin wonders what would have happened if he had chosen a different path in life. Stream 'Butter' 21/5/21

He feels alone Ugly Untalented. Little does he know that there are 6 boys who are crazy over him... ~WARNING~ Contains sensitive topics such as: Self harm, eating disorder, mental illness, depression. If you go through any of these, please get better and seek help. (I'm not sure if this will be slight smut or not I don't think so, cos I feel awkward writing it but if I do I won't be too intense for y'all thirsty people lmao)

[COMPLETED] "I want to remain, I want to dream more" In which Jin is an unfortunate child, living his life full of pain. A child was born normal until one day, they found out that he has an illness. A son of a cold-hearted man and a fond woman. Without his father's love, he keep breathing and living for his loving mother until one day, she was no longer breathing. Six different people met with different backgrounds seek for the revenge of their family because of his father. In order to do that, they take Jin as he is the son of the cold-hearted man but they never realized behind those smile, behind those eyes hide the pain that even no one could understand, not even Jin himself. All Rights Reserved ⓒ2020 RosellyJin Grammatical errors and typos edited by @malvika7

[COMPLETED] A member have to beg to the other members who are the producers of their songs for his voice to be included in their songs. Kim Seokjin have to beg to Min Yoongi and Kim Namjoon for his part. How sad is this? How about one day, Jin completely lost his voice and all the members want is just to hear their hyung's voice once again. The moment Jin was told that he can't sing anymore, he completely shut his life. Live in darkness. Love and appreciate him before it's too late. Why does it hurt so much just to live a life? His existence itself was a mistake. If living his life is this painful, he would choose to die. He is a fighter. He fights for people's happiness but not for his own, just like an angel. WARNING : This fiction is based on my mind. I do not own any of the characters and the story line is purely fictional. Please excuse any grammatical mistakes and typos. Cringe and immatured. All Rights Reserved ⓒ2017 RosellyJin

When BTS finshined taking pictures for their most beautiful moment in life album, an unexpected life threatening accident happens to their eldest hyung. -The time of the story is back in 2015. ___ 🥉Third place winner in the dynamite awards 2020. ___ You can also find this story on Ao3.

Jin is really going through a lot of things in this story... He needs support and love from his members... There were nightmares, and voices that kept disturbing him on the things that he has to do.. The members can't do anything... But why?..Why can't they support their own brother?.. Find out more in the story! Please vote! Thx! Awards: #1 in blames out of 11 stories # 5 in worries out of 431 stories # 11 in self doubt out of 435 stories # 223 in Taejin out of 1000 stories # 236 in questions out of 1000 stories # 385 in depressed 1000 stories # 960 in fights out of 1000 stories Thanks guys for supporting!!

Credit to @btsgraphica on twitter for the cover A story of Yoongi on the autistic spectrum, and how he lives through life with it